well after a huge binge last night on shit im back to my mornal routine.

I starve at work.

Im a bank teller so its easy...pop a ritalin, drink doet soda all day, pop another ritalin, drink more soda, before working out drink some v8 with a ritalin.

then go work out.

so i ate like a huge fucking hog tonight. the fireworks...yeah right. it fucking downpoured so me and marc went into the van to chill and my mom sent in the entire family to bother us. ok he is 25 and im almost 20 and they give us no privacy or respect. so we left to get food. then we came back to my house and he was like practically humping my leg ( Read more... )

add another fruit cup, popcorn, and 3 tacos with blue cheese dressing

so today....

v8 juice-30cals
fruit cup-70
viactives-60
popcorn-120

total- 280

i know im going to be eating a little bit more, but still not too bad.

activity- treadmill-700 cals, walking around fair between 7-11pm

so now im 202...well 201.9

Im so close to breaking into the high 100s...

I missed you so much that I just had to call ( Read more... )

I need to write in this more often.

today:
coffee
diet soda
applesauce
salad w/ff lime vinegrette dressing

total: 150!

lets add a veggie burger, a slice of cheese and applesause onto the list (+ 260)

Yeah I thought I was going to recover, but that just made me go back down this sprialing dark path.

revised stats: FATASS 5'9
CW: 204
HW:204 (im going to consider this the HW, since Im starting over again)
LW: 74
GW1: 190
 GW2:180
Last GW: 135
I went grocery shopping today at this local "good foods" store where ( Read more... )

kate just told me that working out too much wont make you lose weight, yeah thats right....uh no...think again. but then again she is a FAT ASS! something that i will not be....EVER!