so things have sucked since the 7th , which is when my jake and I split up. oh and worst of all , all the stress has actually INCREASED my eating and LESSENED my exercise. So I gues I am just going to try to reverse the depression into fasting. I don't know..this just sucks cause I am already back to 102-103 and i was doing so well.

I'm pretty excited because I have been running like everyday for a couple of weeks now, everytime at least over 20 minutes and I have had 2,hour long runs. I figured out last night that my BMI is 18.29 which is considered underweight*yay!* however I am still DEFINATELY not thin enough! I want to be 95 with a BMI of 17.38 and ideally get down to 92- ( Read more... )

I have done cardio everyday this week for at least over 23 minutes. Today I ran for an hour!!!YAY!!I was sooo excited, it was like 600 calories! Here's my deal, I do really well all day until dinner when I either eat with my boyfriend or family and I have to eat. Usually I want to eat anyways cause I'm hungry and it gives me something to burn off ( Read more... )

WOW I have not written in my journal in forever!Well um..Things are really really good.. Jake and mine's 6 month anniversary was yesterday. Our relationship is doing awesome, he graduates this saturday!Summer Ballet starts tonight and Patti decided I was finally done paying penance for quitting so I am takeing all the company classes which I am ( Read more... )

I haven't posted in a long time...I went out of town for a week over the holidays and was fortuantly away from my weaknesses...ice cream and poptarts! I had no scale to weigh myself on all week which was actually nice because when I came homw I had gone from 111 to 105! I exercised a lot though. Anyways I'm home now and haven't eaten much at all. ( Read more... )

It's been a loong time since I posted..um there's this new guy I'm talking to who is gorgeous and is perfect..seriously like I don't feel good enough for him at all so I like eased my way back into Ana and I'm doing really well. I always do better when I just accidently don't eat much one day cause then I weigh myself at night and notice that I ( Read more... )

Jeff and I broke up last night and I am really depressed because I haven't been taking my meds..I am going on a fast starting tomorrow..I haven't done one in a long time, I think it's going to be a water diet with coffee if I really need some.

Okay so tonight heres what happned: I was about to start eating an ice cream float at my friends house when Jeff goes "are you seriously going to eat that?" and my friend goes "straight to the hips" and Jeff goes"yeah Anne's definately had one to many" and then they just continued making all these jokes..and it does hurt my feelings, but I actually ( Read more... )

Wow I haven't posted in awhile..probably because I was ashamed because I haven't been doing well at all. Today for instance: 1 bag of shocktarts, 3 (VERY BAD)cookies, 1 jello(10 cals), then had dinner with bread and pasta...yeeeeah so I'm not doing well at all and definately gained back everything i lost on the fast. I haven't even been running at ( Read more... )

Day 2: Finally this day is over!I was so worried I would give in tonight but I didn't ( Read more... )