I have been listening to The Raintree more often than I should be. I go days without anything interesting happening to me and then all at once I get amazing news and really awful news ( Read more... )

So, Curt told Chase about going to the show with Colin. I've asked Curt a million times to please please please not divulge my personal life to Chase or anyone associated there of. Tyler told me today that Chase and Kyle have a humongus crush on me. NO DUH! I can tell. Chase asked me point blank about it. He was so what did you and Colin do? I ( Read more... )

I just finished applying to ASU. I'm sitting next to people I don't like, but I'm feeling optimistic about college. I hope if I go to ASU, there are enough people there to drown out the people I don't like.
This is not very good. goodbye

I'm having a moment right now where my I'm either a) dreaming or b) dying. I can't really explain how I'm feeling but I don't want to feel like this. I'm going crazy because it feels like if I keep words inside of me I'm going to explose or implode or something unpleasent. I don't know what to say to you and its harder every second to not say ( Read more... )

I cried today. A lot. I don't want to cry at all, and I was pretty determined to not cry. My mom wanted to "talk". I don't want to blame her, I really don't, but I guess I do for some things anyway. Our family was a neat square, now it's broken into four unequal jagged pieces. I am the only one with threads still holding on to all three other ( Read more... )

You know when your body is telling you to go for it, really making you want to jump and sit still all at once? But another part of you, a bigger part of you says no, he has a girlfriend. And you end up not doing anything because you freeze because you hate yourself for wanting it, and knowing that it is completely out of reach. yeah. i hate it

"I love you. In a really, really big pretend to like your taste in music, let you have the last piece of cheesecake, hold a radio over my head outside your window, unfortunate way that makes me hate you, love you. So pick me, choose me, love me."

We never get what we want. :(

I wish you would please put some clothes on. It's difficult to drive and forget about how hot you are when you are not wearing a shirt.

I want to string together words in the ideal way, to make them sound perfect. I want them to make everything better. I want to have all of the answers. I had an awful day yesterday, one I haven't really experienced in a long time. I was getting in my car after my last class, and fucking Mitch was getting into his truck with Amy. I hate that he ( Read more... )

Oh my. San Diego sounds so nice right now, and completely deserved. I have done nothing but homework for the past week. My dad kicked my brother out of his house, he asked if he could come live with me, but I said no. We don't really get along but I told him to ask my grandma and he's going to live with her until he gets a steady job ( Read more... )