i know the tattoo im getting...if its this weekend im going to be thrilled! but i have to get a hold of linz and make sure...b/c if not, jewls wants me and britanny to come to fort wayne so we could all talk about apts and stuff. anyways, heres the tattoo ( Read more... )

so i didnt sleep last night...i htought i had journaled about this last night on here...but no...i journaled about it on my other lj, lol. grrrr, my confusion baffles me. im gonna copy and paste what i wrote...b/c i dont feel like typing it all out again ( Read more... )

and im getting myself back up. i can do it myself...and though i do have good friends who will be here for me, i think its good that i pick myself up by myself. then i can be stronger and i can take so much more. after i fix myself i can fix my friendships much better ( Read more... )

ok, everyone keeps saying that me and justin were together...like after we broke up...but now that we actually truely called it quites (friday) that we are now broken up. i dont understand. i know we were hanging out kinda like it....but seriously...i really dont feel that way...im so confused. the feelings were definatly not the same. and justin ( Read more... )

as a reply to the last comment on my entry from earlier today...if i forgot about one friend, it would be all. i would just start completely over...but im not going to. i started to try...i made a new lj...and updated it...and talked about things....but i talked to britanny tonight and i dont know...i cant do that. its running away from my problems ( Read more... )

...the end...im starting over....completely new....one thing in unsure about is friends....do i want to start that all over? ....im not sure yet. im cleaning my slate....and im going to be someone different. i ply wont know the same ppl...ply wont hang out w/ the same ppl...get new sns and only give it to new people...then maybe i wont do the same ( Read more... )

i wanna puke, but then again i want to sleep...but then again i cant sleep or puke. its weird...my body hates me. when i got off work i went tanning, then over to daves. then we went to pizza hut (b/c i was hungry)...and justin was there. i didnt want to make things awkward, so i went in the back door. hung out there....but then i was hangin' out ( Read more... )

last night i came home from work...checked my e-mail...noticed that one of my e-mails had been opened and forwarded. it was one from noah. only 2 ppl knew my password...that was both justins...my bro and the other one. well i asked my bro about it (b/c he was online)...i didnt htink it was him though. and i was right. well it kinda bothered me. ( Read more... )

i love the rain...when i was little it was one thing that could put me to sleep. i never sleep very well, unless it is raining...even now that im 18 years old. it started to rain...but then it stopped...i hope i comes back....i hope it rains after i get off work...so i can play in it. :) it would make me so happy. right now i have candles lit, in ( Read more... )

i have so many thoughts....i cant get them all straight. ive been writting in my real journal a lot lately....i wrote in it yesterday 4 times alone. right now im kinda reading my thoughts on everything. i kinda wanted to write some more after i talked to justin a lil more...well i did, but i didnt write about somethign he said. he told me that i ( Read more... )