my head is spinning so much lately..i cant seem to keep it straight for one moment or another. i wish i could just sit down and htink about all of this. but i cant. whenever i try, i just get worse and worse...i think i need to sit down and make myself think....so i know what in the hell to do anymore...everythign is so complicated...and i just ( Read more... )

there are so many things i want to tell him...but i cant...i know i cant...so i keep my words to myself....in order for him to believe them and trust that they are completely true, he needs to realize them on his own...i cant keep telling him....it just doesnt feel right. just to push him in that way...when i know if he wants to go...he will on his ( Read more... )

"The Ghost Of A Good Thing" By Dashboard Confessional ( Read more... )

i promise that i wont tell you i love you whever i look into your eyes...when im in your arms...just in your presence ( Read more... )

i went to the doc yesterday...but they said its not the right place for what is happening...so i have another apt tomm morn at 8:30 am...jusitn is going w/ me again. i cant think....i dont know what to update...my mind is a blank...so anyways...im ply gonna go...i have to work today (when im not supposed to, ugh)...4-6:30..then im going to justins ( Read more... )

yeah, last night...SUCKED! i was over at justins, b/c i went to school w/ him today so that i can go to the doc in columbia city tonight w/ him. well, i was REALLY horny...and umm...yeah, i knew nothing would happen...so i moved to the other room (to keep myself from doing something bad). and yeah, i read the rest of a book i had just started...and ( Read more... )

i have so many thoughts just running around in my head...i just need to get them out...here it goes ( Read more... )

i almost forgot to post my song...this is soo my song, and it reminds me of..well me, lol. its one song that i love...and its totally 80's hehehe...welp...here it is ( Read more... )

ok, i just got home from the movies and a wal mart run w/ dave. we went to see 'guess who'...which was very funny and sweet. it made me think about my life...kinda. i want to get married (now that ive scared off any guy who reads this...lol). i really do. i love the idea of being w/ one person for the rest of my life. to have that kind of security ( Read more... )

ive been listening to this song since i downloaded it last night, ugh. its been on my mind for quite some time...it reminds me of justin....here...Daniel Bedingfield "If you're not the one ( Read more... )