i think that i need a change in my life... i dont kno what yet but i just feel like its time for one. random. i havent written in this thing for such a looong time its like i forgot all about it. well i did but then i was sorting thru my emails and i found an old one from here and i was like no way i forgot all about the lj so i decided to write ( Read more... )

i dont kno what im doing anymore. my emotions are such a mess...sometimes its just easier to be numb than to feel.

- alycia had her baby...celiese anne adair. she is my new favorite thing. ever.
- i dont have to work on thanksgiving.
- i got super stoned with this guy at my work who i have loved forever.
- i made out with the guy who has a girlfriend. oh and ps she lives with him. whatever.
- i got my nipples pierced.

guys with girlfriends suck. especially when you have an amazing night with them and kno that nothing can happen. especially when they can dance and they give you a mind blowing lapdance and you return the favor and you kno that you two would have amazing sex that will never happen.

ha ha...he aint shit

we have decided that its time for chris and myself to come clean to my parents about us. the trouble is neither of us can figure out how to do it without the end result being that one of us gets killed. if anyone has some suggestions i would be extremely grateful!!

taisa and meaghan-i especially need your help since you kno the whole story.

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i am so confused with myself at this point. im sitting on something that i dont kno if i should act on...well i kno that i shouldnt act on it because it would bring nothing but hurt and pain to myself and to others but i guess im just curious. i dont kno what else to say about it without giving it away and since other people can read this i really ( Read more... )

tonight was a good night....

hung out with tina bo bina and josh and jeremy. we all just sat around and i WON the "ive never" game for once in my whole life so suck on that world.

afterwards jeremy walked me to my door. no one has ever done that and i was beyond happy. it was so cute. good thing that they like country. jeremy even sang to me one of ( Read more... )

something happened the other night that im pretty sure shouldnt of happened but you kno me i dont think i just act so that really screwed things up...talk about a blast from the past. asshole tony called me up and ya i went over to his new house. i kept telling myseft that it was just to see the new house but i really wanted to kno where i stood ( Read more... )