Sometimes I wish I could die just so I could watch my own funeral and see if anyone cries.. I wish I could make him feel the same sense of loss that I feel every day when I think about what we used to have.. I'm so emotionally drained right now. I don't understand how he blocks out his feelings for me and I wish I knew how to do that myself.. Why ( Read more... )

I feel like every day my love for you grows stronger.. it reminds me of one of my favorite quotes..

Absence diminishes small loves and increases great ones, as the wind blows out the candle and blows up the bonfire ~ François de La Rouchefoucauld

My love for you is bigger than a bonfire.. it's become a forest fire.. catching a new tree every day and ( Read more... )

I love you... so much...

I'm so miserable.. I feel self destructive.. like I don't care anymore.. It's always the worst at night. When I'm left alone in my own head with no distractions.. I wanna get high even though it won't take my problems away.. I just hate this feeling. I hate going to sleep knowing I have to deliver fucking newspapers again when I wake up.. and that ( Read more... )

Love songs and chick flicks are stupid.. no guy treats women like that. Fuck it..

I want to hold hands and walk the streets of Liverpool again.. or any street, as long as I'm with you. Feel the passion and fury that you kissed me with the first day we spent together in person.. where you pulled my face closer to yours and made me feel wanted. My heart is aching.. but yours is just fine where I'm concerned.. I wish I had an ( Read more... )

James put the biggest smile on my face today.. I was texting him on skype and I said, "Remember when my electricity went out and we talked on the phone for like 6 hours?" He texted back saying "Dint want 2 leave a sexy lady on her own wiv no electric" lol.. That's England shorthand for you.. but it put the biggest smile on my face. I really love ( Read more... )

I want passion... a relationship where two people can't get enough of each other... crave each other.. need each other.. I want depth.. where you can sit and talk about how much you love and miss each other without it being a negative thing - there's nothing wrong with showing emotion and sadness. I want someone who's attracted to me as much as I ( Read more... )

When you buy a phone.. you go all the way
When you buy clothes.. you go all the way
When you cook a meal.. you go all the way
When you fall in love.. you don't go all the way.

Let go.. let me in.. :(

I've never been so hurt.. I was just excited that he was home.. he came back on the xbox, I wanted to talk to him. He ignored my chat request.. my message and my party invites.. so I called him. Some dickhead answered the phone in a weird voice and told me I had the wrong number and hung up on me, so I called James back twice and he answered.. he ( Read more... )