It's so hard to be away from you. I want to come over after work and play xbox, cuddle and fall asleep in your arms. I want to grill you steak, play cards and board games, go to fun restaurants and have adventures.. Why do we have to be so far away from each other.. it isn't fair. :,( I know it'll be better someday.. but that seems so far away. 

 I wish I could go back in time.. feel feelings again, see smiles again.. enthusiasm fades and friendships get taken for granted and so it goes. I feel out of place, like I'm intruding in a life that I don't belong in.. I want to feel wanted, I want to feel special. I want that enthusiasm and excitement that there was when we first met. Why did he ( Read more... )

Sitting in my bed at nearly 4 in the morning, thinking about you, is all too familiar territory ( Read more... )

Every time I'm driving, I'm thinking. Driving and listening to music makes me feel at peace.. observing people like I'm watching a music video or living a dream.. I was thinking today that I really miss certain times in my life where I can remember happiness. I miss 10th grade, when I lived in a really small BFE (Bum Fuck Egypt) town called ( Read more... )

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I walked out of the Unimart today.

I've really had enough. I make enough at my other job and get treated much better. Mosaic congratulates me when I do a good job, treats me with respect, pays well, gives me flexibility, and new challenges. The Unimart brings me down, treats me like I'm beneath it, doesn't pay shit, and over-all depresses me. ( Read more... )

I'm restless.. I've been listening to music all night and reading poetry and wishing I could create something. Wrapped up in a blanket eating orange jello out of a plastic cup with a plastic spoon, drinking peach tea and listening to Epica. I love the big picture but I also love the details, I love descriptions. I had a random phone conversation ( Read more... )

Since we have the capacity to befriend so many different types of people due to our chameleon-like abilities.... does it confuse anyone else too with how an ENFP will know if they "love" someone as opposed to just liking them or finding them "interesting/entertaining" for the moment ( Read more... )

There are so many memories I have, and feelings I've felt, that I wish I could re-live. I hate when things don't last. I envy those who are constantly surrounded by people who show interest in them, whether it be romantic, or platonic. The best feeling in the world is to be the reason that someone else smiles.

Sometimes I feel like a different ( Read more... )

Jay (Raven) broke up with me last Wednesday.. he was a jerk though, we weren't meant for each other.  He was never affectionate enough for me, he wasn't a sweet guy, he wouldn't go out of his way for anyone, he didn't know how to make me feel special. He was a cat person, I'm a dog person. He didn't like the Beatles. He drank every night and smoked ( Read more... )