I drove around alone, I stopped in the Target parking lot and watched the moon through the car window. I looked on the floorboards for paper to write a poem. I found dirty papers that are most likely important and a mechanical pencil with no lead. Sometimes it's hard to sleep when I look at you and you don't look back. I just want you to hold my ( Read more... )

  I came home tonight, at 2am, I was laying next to him but I couldn't sleep. I know I'm sensitive.. but I wish he understood how I felt. I wish men were easier to read. I wish I didn't feel lonely so easily.

Feeling miserable is easier than trying to be happy.
But it's not worth it.

I'm so lonely. But who can make me happy? I don't even know. I don't know ( Read more... )

Just wanted to update you on absolutely nothing. It's been almost a week since my awesome night with Rob, and he hasn't so much as even been online ( Read more... )

The other day, I got an instant message from someone I thought I'd never hear from again ( Read more... )

I realized something today, with the help of my sister. I read her comment on my last blog and I put two and two together and realized every time I get hurt, the guy doesn't love himself! If you think you're worthless you're going to treat everyone like they are! I've gone through plenty of periods of depression and hating myself, but deep down I ( Read more... )

I'm not naive, nor am I optimistic. I know how the world is, I know how people are. I'm just hopeful, and I'm right. I know I'm right. People shouldn't be like they are.

Passing by wonderful, beautiful people because they don't fit shallow empty standards.

I hate being this age, among the "boys". I hate being looked at like I'm not pretty because I'm ( Read more... )

Christmas day.. I sat online all day, I ordered chinese and ate alone. My sister called and said "hey! come over to mom's and let's get drunk!"

So, I went. I brought along some very high potent amazing green that I recently came across. Now let me tell you.. this stuff had THICK red hairs, and huge crystals... smelled very strong. I've never seen ( Read more... )

I want beauty.. and depth.

When I find it, I don't want to let go.

I decided to break the cycle and listen to a new song ( Read more... )