Went to Long Island. I saw her. She says she was still stressed. Things were ok, I suppose, If youre not me. What happened to sex, excitement, etc...? School is dandy, but no one should lose who they are over that. Unless, I really don't know who she is. Buddhist? Not a very good one. Sometimes vices take years before anyone can believe a person is ( Read more... )

That sums it up. I am heartbroken again. not really i hate dating i hate not being accepted. i hate being crazy, but i love my friends

So things have had thier time with me. I went/still going through a descent slump financially. I just found myself a job, so I still have some debts to rescue when I first get paid. The job which entails me fixing and installing garage doors runs me minimum $450 to be paid weekly. Sweet! I can actually start my own business through the guy who runs ( Read more... )

Since I worte in this here journal. Much has gone on in my life. Nothing terribly exciting. I had a poetry reading, it went fairly well. I am still in the process of composing more to add to my collection for print. I crashed my car, its gonna cost me an arm and a leg to fix the fucker. I met someone new and amazing. Shes Buddhist, tattooed, smart ( Read more... )

Theres a beautiful woman in my bed and its non sexual, straight up nice to have someone to cuddle with. Its been a looong looong time since this was a reality.

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Damn I always have fun in Baltimore. Tonight was no exception. Someone new in my life, a friend, but still awesome and I met up in Fells Point ate food. Went to see my friends band from SC play (Something about Vampires and Sluts). It was a blast. The first bands sucked asshole. SAVAS played there always -awesome set. After the show they were ( Read more... )

Finally, I have a break from my own Drama, but got caught up in everyone else's drama ha!. I attract the futility of self acting and crying I s'pose. But me, I am finally unscathed. I became a hero to a few people this weekend. As well, my Head Automatica experience was better than the sex I am lacking. I know this for real. The most mind-blowing ( Read more... )

so i had a great meditation that failed my neurosis. Ilamost slit my fucking wrsists last night. I went to buy cigarettes and almost beat the shit outta the gas station worker for not giving me change. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. I have a few days of job interviews and my heads still clouded. Why must it be this way?

I take back every word i said about Nikki aka EGYPTIA on livejournal all back. I take back all the flowers and trips to baltimore, because she is a woman of total fucking greed. but when she has the center of attention and he treats her well she doesnt respond, thats when I lose my cool