i forgot all about this thing i have so much to write but with what little computer time i have i've been bloggin on myspace ( i know i'm so lame)
myspace name is andilusch (remember when nate named me that before he died)

hi everyone miss ya ( Read more... )

yay i'm happy!!

I'm doing a little better I'm on happy pills which are mking it a little better. My MRI was kinda ok. My brain is pretty much without anymore damage, but the doctor say a little new area on my spine. I was feeling a little odd but I'm doing better now. He said it's all passed now anyway based on the way it looked when the die was injected. I'm ( Read more... )

i dont have a lot of time but i wanted to say hi.. my alandre turns 7 on monday!! over at my dads for a birthday party ( Read more... )

ok my life has come to this, i'm sitting here in the fawkin library, supposed to be at work but i'm so emotionally distraught i keep throwing up (but not for at least an hour so i chanced coming here). i ma so lost in life. i don't know what i want to do. i dont want a job where i'm forced to lie to people, i don't want to settle and be in an ( Read more... )

i wish i could get over being so bummed about matt.... he really meant a lot to me. but i just have to accept reality. i mean it's to the point where i dont cry but maybe once in a while but i just misss him so much. it's so unsettled. but that's my life ( Read more... )

hi everyone i miss you all. i'll post here cuz i dont have time to go to the group ( Read more... )

i was kinda mean today. i was not in the mood for company and my friend came over and brought me a feel better card and i was bitchy. LOL. NOT ME?!?! *gasp ( Read more... )

i had some time to myself earlier today, 5-9 lol but i took it. I went out with a friend and had a lot of fun. The more I go about my life and have fun with the people i used to hang with before i moved and met Matt is making me better mentally. I always wanted to spend every moment i could talking to matt whenever we could so i seriously like ( Read more... )