My life feels so empty right now. I'm not just hurting myself but I'm also hurting others! I hate doing that more than anything... hurt other people. I'm trying to take sometime to myself and figure everything out, but my heart is breaking in the process. I do love Patrick and when I said yes I ment it. I just don't know what is wrong with me ( Read more... )

I don't know what I'm supposed to do! Last night I broke things off with Patrick and I feel like it could have been a mistake. At the same time I feel like it's the right thing. I need to take the time to straighten my life up and figure everything out. I'm afraid that if I wait too long that Patrick will be out of my life in every way. I want ( Read more... )

I've had an awesome weekend! I got outta work on at like 7 friday and went to the show with Patrick, Whitney, and Chris. We had an awesome time! Then, after work last night I stayed the night with Whitney and we stayed up until like 330am talking. It was awesome. I'm even happier because Patrick asked me to marry him Thursday night. And then ( Read more... )

I'm still feeling a little depressed. Nothing seems to be going exactly the way I want it. I was supposed to go to my dad's yesterday after school, but I got called into work and now I'm going to be working 6 days straight unless my boss tells me otherwise. That sucks major ass! I'm so stressed out and I feel like doing things that I know I ( Read more... )

Today was okay, but I felt a little depressed! I get that way sometimes. I'm not exactly sure, but I beat myself up over stupid shit and the it all builds up and I get depressed for a couple of days. I guess it's because I'm dreading going back to school. I'm so scared that I'm going to fail again! I'm also worried that Patrick and I may ( Read more... )

For a minute there I had lost my Patrick and now he's back! We've working out all of our problems and our relationship is getting back to normal. He is the best thing that has happened to me and I love the people I've met since I've been with him! Especially Brooke, she's kick ass! School starts in a week and I'm hoping this sememster will be ( Read more... )