Well, it's a new year which means basically nothing. nooothhing goes right... i'm not just being negative. life's good, sure, but i can't answer a single question for myself. everything is so weird, people are handing me oppertunities and instead of taking advantage of them i put on a fake smile and say "no thank you". i'm always saying things are ( Read more... )

Merry Christmahannukwanza!!!

Happy Birthday Lydia!!!

i am in a good mood right now, to be alone for a couple of days is nice. freedom at last. i feel good, i feel pretty, which i haven't felt in a while, and i feel like for once i don't have to care about ANYTHING. i want to be taken out, somewhere nice. i want to feel important even if it's for just one night. let me add i fucking hate school, i'm ( Read more... )

so basically annoyed with life PEOPLE and thoughts/feelings in general i just feel hate. i feel sick and i want to be mean and i don't feel bad about it and i'm trying not to care i want to express how much i hate you. i want you to feel what i feel and think what i think and hear what i'm hearing, i want you to realize why i feel this way about ( Read more... )

it's such a shitty feeling, to have everyone against you, to be lied to by what you think are friends, and to be untrusted by that one person you care about the most, it hurts to be denied and avoided and pushed aside. i just want things to be normal for once. what am i doing wrong, i feel like i'm always the only one trying ever and it doesn't ( Read more... )

you are disgusting, the things you say the way you say them, you make me cringe. i hate you.

everyone is so goddamn annoying

i just want to give up already i'm tired and i feel like i'm the only one trying, you don't help ever.

~goodbye

i'm in the mood to make something, be creative and artistic, but i don't want to draw,i have nothing to draw. i want to make something with my hands, something cool and fun. if any one has any ideas for me let me know. - so things have been good, i got my hair cut and i'm lovin it. my report card was awesome, for me any way. and i'm generally happy ( Read more... )

today was shitty. nothing went right, it started last night. Halloween, found out something that made me want to hurt something innocent. this morning i get a call which basically was to inform me that i had to ride the bus (thumb way down) pull myself out of bed with the heaviest migraine and worst feeling in my stomache. went to school, wanted to ( Read more... )

so i have learned that i would litterally go insane if i lived alone, or with steve, but that's basicly the same exact thing. as annoying as they are i miss my kitties, at least they keep me company. it's good to be alone sometimes but i can't handel it for too long.