things are so hard right now. his grandma is dying and i'm not sure how much he knows about that. i dont want to be the one to tell him because his mom should ( Read more... )

i hate being used ( Read more... )

i'm pretty sure my kitty is going to die today... or tonight. she's 14 and she is just tired. she wont even stand up long enough to eat. she is really thirsty but she hasnt gone to the bathroom all day, she wont even close her eyes hardly. her breathing is getting tired. i've had her since i was 4, i got her for christmas. i've had her through 3 ( Read more... )

there is so much to think about coming up. i graduate school in 6 months, which means i'll be moving up to the next level. that's really wild. i'll be moving to so cal. i'll be getting my own apartment. i'll be living on my own. i'll be waiting for kenny to come to cali. i'll be doing so much that i never thought would happen ( Read more... )

everything is perfect... except he isn't here. but other than that our relationship is absolutely amazing. he knows everything to say, everything to do. he is just the single most amazing thing to ever happen to me. i love him whole heartedly. i just hope i'm enough for him.

wow, i never thought being engaged meant that everyone else got to tell me what is best for me... if i had known that i might have waited a little longer till we were together and could stand up to everyone as ONE. but oh well, these are the cards we're dealt and i'm ready to take them head on.

oh my gosh i am so lucky. and thankful. there is a guardian angel at the washington mutual of pleasant hill LOL. i had some issues leading me to have 150 bucks in fees and the nice lady on the other end of the phone took away my fees. she is my hero for the day ( Read more... )

OMG YAY!!! i've been stuck at 125.5 lbs for almost a month and i finally moved to 123!!!! my goal is to get to 121 and STAY. my stomach has flattened out again and my legs are not rubbing together anymore. i'm so flip-flappin happy!

i have nothing to complain about really other than the fact that i am totally tired all the time. we finally handed over the keys to the old house yesterday so we're "done" moving. by "done" i mean we have all of our stuff at our new house, but it's still either packed or strewn all over the house because we haven't had the time to get it unpacked ( Read more... )

so my thoughts right now... marriage, engagement, living together, influence ( Read more... )