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The right thing...
I miss him a lot, but I know I had to do it. I wish that I could change myself so I could be with him. Or had found out I was a lesbian before we began dating, but I did do what I ment to, I made him not want to kill himself. I talked to him when he was down here getting some stuff, and he wants to be friends :) which makes me very happy, cuz I ( Read more... ) -
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This has to be quick I need to get back to work soon. I broke up with A the day before yesterday. He didn't even threaten to kill himself. He called his dad and had him come pick him up. I finally got the guts to let everything out. He was trying to get me to stay until I told him that I havn't been sexually attracted to him in almost a year. Then ( Read more... ) -
What do I do now???
I'm re-evaluating my relationship. I broke up with him in August of 2005, we got back together late December 2005. I broke up with him because I was very confused and angry. That's the only reason I can think of, besides the fact that I wasn't happy. I believe I am a very stupid person a lot. I was not happy when I broke up with him, so insted of ( Read more... ) -
Everything is getting better now :)
In two months everyhting is going to be so awsome!!! One of my very good friends owns a ranch in Ferndale and he just went through his 3rd devorce. He wants Alex and I, Dustin and Megan and Cameron to come live with him for free. No rent, no utilities, he's going to give me a ride to work until he gets me my licence and a car. He's going to build ( Read more... ) -
Just another day...
Things are going pretty good for the first time in a while. I think the anti-depressants are really halping. I couldn't sleep well last night. I went to bed at 3am and got up at 9am. Usually this would make me very tired, but last night it didn't. I am a little sleepy, but not yawning constantly sleepy. I could sleep right now, but I can almost ( Read more... ) -
quick note
I went to the doctor last wednesday. For depression. They gave me some Paxil. I wasn't sure about it at first, but Alex says that he can see a difference already. I do feel more energetic. Even when I'm tired I have more energy. And the reason I feel so tired all the time is because I'm not eating right. Not by choice though, which is an ( Read more... ) -
Long time no see....
I've been getting very stressed out lately. Living on your own really does suck. I can still remember when I lived with my mum or dad and I didn't have to pay rent or PG&E or water or buy my own food. It seemed like having a job gave me all the money in the world. Not anymore. But I wouldn't move back in with my mum unless I was about to become ( Read more... ) -
..Confusion..
I feel very lost right now. It seems like everyone is getting mad at me constantly. I think it's because I don't have a job right now, and I'm living off Alex and Sam. The only way that I've been able to even pay my bills is financial aid. I have to borrow money from my mum this month to pay my rent. And I managed to pay my phone bill last month ( Read more... ) -
....lost in oblivion....
I havn't been feeling great lately. Alex and I have been fighting. I'm not really sure what over, but he isn't happy. He says I'm too childish. I kind of see where he is coming from, but I'm only childish about things that don't matter as much. If it has something to do with bills or real life I don't think I'm childish. Is it that bad that I want ( Read more... ) -
quick update
I don't have very much time, my mum needs to go to work soon. I'm trying to get a job desperately. I have no idea how I'm going to pay my bills next month. I decided a couple days ago that I need to drop one of my classes at school, because I wont have enough time to do all my homework when I have a job. I have applied at a few places around here, ( Read more... )