Wow, I think everyday something happens to me that makes me wonder where I go from here. I was never expecting Rod to tell me he wanted to be with me, but I also wasn't expecting him to say he didn't want me to wait for him because he didn't know when he would have the courage to break up with Brandy. I adore spending time with him, but I don't ( Read more... )

I don't know what's going on with my life. It seems like one minute everything is going right, and the next minute I have lost everything. I haven't talked to michael in two days and it is driving me absolutely insane and Rod all of the sudden is acting like he doesn't even want to be around me, let alone be with me. My mind is questioning all of ( Read more... )

Sometimes I question what is happening around me. I question why people do the things they do me. I go over it over and over again in my head, wondering, praying for the answer to just pop out and say "ME! I'm the one you want and who wants you back". It's not that simple though. Neither of them want to get hurt, and for some reason they all think ( Read more... )

It's been a few days, and I think life just got weirder and weirder. For some reason, both of them seem to be making an effort? I don't get it. Neither of them want to be with me, but all of the sudden Rod is inviting me over to sleep and Michael keeps calling just to talk to me about his day. It doesn't make sense. Men are officially the weirdest ( Read more... )

I don't know how this happened. I keep trying to make sense of it in my mind. I don't know how it ever could have happened, it was not part of the plan. In one day my entire world was turned upside down and now my head is in all sorts of weird places trying to find an explanation for all of it. I'm not ready to lose him, but with all of the things ( Read more... )

I didn't realize that he loved me so much he wanted to spend more time with his friends than me. I never knew that when he gets to spend almost every night of the week with his friend his friend still wants the fucking weekends with him. It really is fucking dumb. When the fuck did it become okay for his friend to play the selfish card and him end ( Read more... )

I wish I understood what was happening. I wish I knew why everything was happening the way that it is. I want to know why all of the sudden my friends want to be my friends again, but at the same time Michael is so pissed about one little thing. I understand that he is worried that Rod will try and take me away from him, but if he trusts me he ( Read more... )

I have this dream and in this dream I had my friends back that I could just run into their room and jump on the bed and we could talk for hours about the boys in our lives and the things going on. But then I wake up and I realize that I'm sitting in this room all alone with a roomate slamming her door because I turned a damn song on. I keep ( Read more... )

I don't even know where to begin. I'm losing everyone. The only person I haven't lost it seems is Michael and even then he makes me wonder sometimes when he never calls back when he says he will. I'm just glad he took things a little bit easier than I was expecting. He went straight into that mode of "ok if that is true then this is what we're ( Read more... )

I don't really know what's going on anymore. I just wanted to figure out what might be going on with me, and when I googled them the first things that came up were things about pregnancy. It really does scare me. Especially since last week I had all of the catscans and everything done. I'm scared to tell Michael. I really don't know what he would ( Read more... )