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This vacation has been knucking guts.OMG i know I haven't posted in like 4ever but man I feel like I've done so much that i didn't even know where to begin. i had a wonderful christmas, received lots of awesome gifts, I got an ihome, a dvd player,a waterproof ipod ( Read more... )

It seems like no matter how hard I try, I’m never gonna find someone who  can love me enough not to hurt me. These past few days have been really hard for me. And  I am just so sick….sick sick sick of everything bad  in my life. And most of it, is concerning Bryan. I don’t understand how he can be conscious of how much he hurts me and not even care ( Read more... )

Just got back from dancing at National College. Let’s just say it was pretty damn horrible. First of all, for practice, the teacher was 45 minutes late, then when we got to National College and were getting ready to go on, the teacher forgot the mix cd and had to go all the way back to the academy to get the cd. So we had to tell the event ( Read more... )

As much as my mental capacities exceed, I still can’t understand or comprehend why he hasn’t called me. It’s simple really. Hold up your hand ,press 7 numbers and press talk really it’s quite simple but I don’t understand why men’s mental capacities still haven’t reached that level yet. I’m sorry I sound like such a bitch, but I’m so upset it’s ( Read more... )

I had a great weekend.On friday night, I went to the towns Christmas celebration show, that I was SUPPOSED to dance in. But here's the thing. We couldn't dance because our teacher Nelson, was dancing in a concert with this famous latin star named Ivy Queen. So he was there instead of here practicing with us. And naturally, without having practiced ( Read more... )

Am I crazy for wanting to be wanted? For feeling like I need to be needed? What is wrong with me, why do I feel so selfish and guilty for feeling this way.. why do I feel like such a sobra with Bryan sometimes?AM I JUST SOME STUPID ATTENTION WANTING SLUT?!  I know that me and him broke up, but that doesn’t mean we can’t talk or anything.. but that’ ( Read more... )

I hope everybody had a good thanksgiving. Mine was pretty effing awesome. First I went over to Fred's mom's house and we ate, and sat around and watched Ratatouille .Kaila had invited me to go over to her house for thanksgiving so I agreed to go but after I got out of Fred's  mom's house. But since Fred had to work today, he gave me a ride to Kaila ( Read more... )

It’s been a really long time since I’ve written so let’s lay it down as well as I can..After some weeks had passed and Bryan’s behavior, as well as our bad situation with my parents, went from bad to worse, and even though I knew they were bullshitting me with the whole “California” thing, It still just made things worse..well, I called bryan up ( Read more... )

I HAVE A MONTH AND A HALF BEFORE MY LIFE CHANGES DRASTICALLY..I HAVE A MONTH AND A HALF TO BREAK UP WITH BRYAN IF NOT, QUOTE PARENTS, THEY'RE SENDING TO ME california TO LIVE WITH MY DAD..I'M SOO NOT JOKING EITHER..THEY'RE ACTUALLY DEAD SERIOUS..AND IF THEY DO THAT, I'LL NEVER SPEAK TO THEM AGAIN..I CAN'T EVEN PROCESS THIS.. I DON'T WANNA GO.. AS ( Read more... )

The opera was great ....in italian, but none the less, amazing....It was like small three operas in one. The second one was the most beautiful one. I cried at the end. It was about a nun who had a child a long time ago but had to give up the son to become a nun and at the end, she find out her son dies and kills herself so she could be with him.It ( Read more... )