Have been a little stressed the past few days but nothing too bad. Just a lot going on at work. The world will know soon. Im on early shift again, so my schedule is messing me up. I can't get enough sleep. But everything overall is fine. I need to call mom tonight to check in on things. Really wish I could call Nickie, but oh well. Thats the way it ( Read more... )

YAY!!!  I passed my PT test and I am so happy to finally be done with it. I knew I could...okay, that is a bunch of bull. I thought I would fail it. My NCO basically kicked my ass all the way, but it is okay. I am greatful to him for it.  Now I can go on pass and just get the hell outta here. CHEERS!!!

The past few weeks here, like my previous enteries will testify, have been slightly stressful. Not as bad as normal, but just so. I can not stress how horrible I feel about this whole failing the PT test thing. I mean I have never failed TWO PT test in a row. I have another one June 6th and if I fail again I am going to flip. Sgt Simms is doing the ( Read more... )

Goodnight sweetheart, I never knew your heart so well.
I lied and promised I wouldn't tell. But here I am 
telling all to this hand full of memories.
Goodnight sweetheart. The words never start
so well, I knew I should have tried to tell you
what the heart lies were telling me... then you see
that the blossoms were all I had to hold on to,
everywhere the ( Read more... )

This week has already been "one of those" and it is only Tuesday night. Just alot on my mind. PT Test, promotion, bonus, taxes, baby boys of now known origins, that weird ass movie HOSTEL, abortions (no, not my own. I am in a debate class), sleep, sleep sleep. I do keep worrying about this damn PT test though cause I am working on it and there is ( Read more... )

You Are a Strawberry Daiquiri
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You Are Corona
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23 times, driving by the ocean, stallion of
black, blood money from Iraq in our pockets,
laughing with the windows down and the music up,
14 songs I loved to sing 3 times the ringing
of the phone to condone our surrealistic reality.
5 different fingers caresing and 2 cigarettes lit, 
Going to meet the two of them
Her and him, really only 1 lately
When I ( Read more... )

Remembering like out of a daze, suddenly, 
the room is on fire and these pills that
I have taken drive me higher than I have ever been before...
is it okay to not see the door, but to walk right through it,
to not realize that I have only taken ample
opportunities and abused it? Fuck it. I know that 
they know what I am thinking so I will hide these ( Read more... )

Everything revolves around the things I said
did I mean the things I said, I thought maybe
you could see past them and into
a heart that never lies
I have known love and, oh god, the loss
and I keep denying the ultimate cost
that if I were to play that game then 
things, I swear, will never be the same.
See his heart beat as mine does beat
Does he know that ( Read more... )