I happen to run in to an old friend today, She is working as a nurse at my doctors office. When I knew this woman before she was a manager of a Dunkin Donuts and relied on the state for much of her income, and now she has made her dream of becoming a nurse come true. It made me think of all that I have just seem to let pass by in my life. I always ( Read more... )

My ex-husband called to speak with the kids last night he has been calling more often since my husband sent him a not so nice email. Well when he was done talking to them he wanted to talk to me to tell me that he would not be able to send them anything this year for Christmas. To tell you the truth I wasn't shocked at all. I told him he would need ( Read more... )

Well today is moving day. Judy ( the new girlfriend) is moving in with my dad today. How do I feel about this? I really don't know I thought I was okay with it but I quess not.  My husband keeps telling me I need to grow up and deel with this like an adult. I thought pouting was adult.......my bad. honestly Judy is the nicest person in the world ( Read more... )

Well another day is here. I could not sleep at all last night. I paced the house most of the night  did laundry and washed and organized all the kids scarfs, hats and gloves......yeah fun. I have a splitting headache and all I want to do is crawl into a holl and hide. Why is it when other people get depressed all they do is sleep and I can't sleep ( Read more... )

Here I sit alone in the darkness pouring out my heart to a screen while my eyes are clouded with tears. Why do I feel this way...I can almost feel myself closing in. My husband (god bless him) is treating me with kid gloves for fear I might snap at any moment. I want to stop feeling this way. I want to know I am not alone. I live with my best ( Read more... )

    This time of year should be happy but all I seem to feel is haunted by the death of my mother. I need to try and move on and have a christmas with her "replacement". The woman was never really nice to me but she was still my mom and I loved her more than anything. I have had a lot of issues come forward latley with my ex-husband fucking with my ( Read more... )

So I have this ex-husband that is really a waste of air. He has been out of work for the past 8 or so months from work for get this....FUCKING HEADACHES....we should all be that lucky. Now I hear after returning to work on Monday he is taking time off for vacation.....ARE YOU KIDDING ME ( Read more... )

Okay so here's an update.......I quit smoking and started sucking on tootsie pops to help with the urges. I broke my tooth and had to get it pulled on Monday. Not only did they have to shave down my jaw bone they also had to staple my bone back together when they were done. They told me not to smoke or suck  (LOL) or I would get a VERY painful dry ( Read more... )

I have written in one of these in the past when it seemed my life was at it's darkest. It is funny how life takes its sweet time to unfold. I am a happily married mother of the two most beutiful children in the world (of coarse I am bias). My husband, Greg,is not the biological father of my kids but, without a doubt the greatest dad that he didn't ( Read more... )