im tired of all the things people are saying about my weight i can't take it anymore. this christmas break felt like everyone was speaking about my weight.i was most embarassed when my cuzin chelz gave a size large in jeans from urban behaviour and they didn't fit me..i began to cry in the changeroom and my mom kept buggin me about it and i told ( Read more... )

sry i haven't updated in a long time.been realli busy and occuppied i guess by friends and family and my future. the perfoming arts thing is realli making me nervous and i have to get two letters of reference proving im dong something in the skool and the community..which now i have to take classes for. its alrite but it is stressing me out ( Read more... )

todae was an okay day, i guess. i think some of the guys are getting annoyed with me... i guess i won't bother them or do anything with them anymore, its okay there are other people. it was a boring day except for maybe recess and family life class. this week we have to write down what we eat and then highligt all the things that are bad for us.so ( Read more... )

i dunno...i always feel like i have to be up to people's standards. like if i don't... everything will go wrong. i've always been that way. i mostly get from my parents and teachers at skool. if i act out.. they always say i wouldn't expect that from u..ur always a good child.LIKE WAT THE HELL?im not a frigging perfect person. its like they expect ( Read more... )

todae i have to say was one of my worst days. i hated it. early in tha morning my sister was complaining how she had to go pooh and she said it wouldn't come out when we were supposed to come downstairs waiting for the bus.it may sound funny but at that moment i was so ready to slit her throat and i mean it. once she was finished we were waiting ( Read more... )

bored and im just gunna write what happen todae. it was okay and pretty easy. no homework...hell yah.it was half day for nikka so she came to visit us in the afternoon. and ms.d'aguanno had to go to a appointment so we were left with mr.w. it was kinda kewl. the rest of the day we were plainly making fun of laura and bianca it was so fucking funny ( Read more... )

Now im feeling good and fresh. Kinda having thoughts if i like adam or not. Should i go out iwht him or not. Rite now i don't realli wanna be in a relationship. too much commitment and no flirting allowed with other GUYS...LOL. can't wait till tomorrow. PARTY! omg i haven't been to one in like ages.. gotta thank alex for his party or my life would ( Read more... )

I have like a major headache and its killing me and on top of that im doing my homework. Art is fucking due tomorrow. i have to study for the french quiz and science quiz. im sorta mad but betta than yesterdae. i don't wanna go to skool tomorrow. can't wait till a next holidae. omg i can't wait for halloween. CANDY! and the dance at our skool if we ( Read more... )

im so lost in my life! it seems like everything to me doesn't come easy. sometimes i just wanna just screw it and just leave. i have to admit i do think about killing myself. its just i dunno. jus that i think of myself of a person just covering up the real me. sometimes i act a certain way becuz i jus hate myself at that certain time or becuz i ( Read more... )

Everybody is getting boyfriends and girlfriends like its a trend or something. It kind of feels like im not included at all becuz im not in a relationship so i can't realli relate to what they are feeling. maybe other people who are single are feeling the same way. As claudio said there are three types of gurls at our skool the tired out ones, the ( Read more... )