what a lifestyle change i have gone threw. i am working as a promotions a ssistant for Clear Channel Radio, im on y way to becoming a D.J. for 105.9 The Buzz and i have a boyfriend who i have been staying with a lot in Bradenton. I work my ass off and he plays video games and attends one class a day. i do the laundry and ask him to do the dishes. i ( Read more... )

i can only remember a handfull of times when i have felt this depressed so suddenly. i have been sleeping all day since i left from school but now at 2:13 in the morning i can get a wink. i cant stop crying, nothing is helping. it just comes out of me in bursts. damn all of you or any of you that have made me feel this way. i hate you for it.

I GET MY FIRST TATOO TODAY~!!!! I AM SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO EXCITED! I WILL UPDATE PCITURES ON THIS I SWEAR BECAUSE THIS IS GOING TO BE THE SEXIEST THING IN THE WORLD!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! I CANT WAIT ONLY A FEW MORE HOURS!

okay so its benne a while... i dont have much to say other then i got my car abck and i have 3 days until i turn 18. school is getting harder and harder as the year comes to an end and i cant stand it! it is really hard to work and make good grades! although i have been making a few new friends at work and they are sooo much fun to hang out with. i ( Read more... )

so yesterday already sounds fun. yes, i know... i know, ANOTHER ACCEDENT?!? this one was seriously not my fault. for anyone who knows Sarasota it was right off of bee ridge going twards I75. i was almost about to pass the intersection of Swift where it turns into tuttle when a 1996 turquoise green nissan side swipes me. i was scared and shocked and ( Read more... )

okay so yeah every once in a while i will bitch about something or someone on LJ, but usually i dont do it when i know that this person i am bitching about is gunna read it. especially when i know that once i talk to the person they are going to feel bad in the first place. so instead lets have them read it on the internet after it is all over with ( Read more... )

today at school we heard our coach talking to Libby's dad. he is thinking of having a "celebration" service possibly on saturday. i dont know what time or where yet but then i get more information i will be sure to post it. also it should be open to the public but i will be sure to chack on that for you too. hold on guys, it is hard but we can all ( Read more... )

yesterday as i was at work i got a phone call from the other senior at my school. she had left an urgent message so i decided to call her back when she told me that another student at our school had passed away in her sleep. tears were pouring from my eyes and i couldnt believe it. i had to leave. i went home and took a long hot shower before i get ( Read more... )

yesterday i got in trouble for doing something totally stupid... i know it was a stupid thing to do, i knew it then and i know it now. i feel like shit and i am so confused. i have not felt this terrible since i tried to commit suicide. i havent felt so unbelieveably... wow there are no words to express all the emotions i feel. i just dont want to ( Read more... )

it is 9:40 am. i am sitting in a hot classroom representing hell with the only other senior. no teacher... no work... no way of getting work because all of my shit is in the room where the rest of the school is taking the PSAT! i have been sitting here since 8:30 am... i am so bored, so tired, so frustrated and so ready to scream so that maybe a ( Read more... )