i remember when i first got my drivers license and my new car.... all i wanted to do was go ad see my friends. all i wanted to do was take myself from here to there and anywhere i wanted to go. well it seems like no one else feels that way. it seems like when someone i know just got a car and a reason to drive it... well emily didnt matter any ( Read more... )

hello... it has been a while. i had a great summer, went to new york worked a lot and now i am back in school. it has only been like 6 days that i have attended but so far i am just about a head in all my work and if i stay this way through out the year i will be just fine. lee and i are just fine, happy as ever and like always... in love. the " ( Read more... )

if you could read this i would ask you one question. WHY?!? why would you lie to me? what makes you think i wouldn't find out? what would provoke you to do such a thing? why take advantage of a person that really cares about you? why me? why can't you just be honest? what justifies your lies? why would you ask me to be honest when you weren't going ( Read more... )

i had a very nice weekend infact. to short like always but it was enjoyable. i was supposed to do somthing with lee and alex on friday, but alex got off to late and we couldnt hang out. saturday i tried waiting for a hour for alex to get out of work, but he took to long and i have a curfew. so i went to lees and we watched a movie and laid together ( Read more... )

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any one who thinks they know everything, or anyone who thinks they dont know enough, anyone at all... i recomend you read the book "Tuesdays with Morrie" by Mitch Albom. Life lessons about anything and everything. so many things i garuntee you will have never thought of. to believe that it is actually a true story blows me away. there are very few ( Read more... )

as i sit here in my history class, watching the end of the Vietnam war, i think to myslef. i am in such shock. not even 48 hours ago someone who i never thought i would ever be able to talk to came into my life and asked me to be a part of his life again. i listened to my first instinct. i still love him to. everything was all to firmilliar and ( Read more... )

if i could make a wish right now i would wish that things never changed. i would still work in a perfect place, i would still have my battle wound, but i would not have a shitty memory attached to it, i would have a boyfriend that loved me, i would still have met the most kindand generous person i have ever known. but you cant live life on wishes ( Read more... )

after a very confusing week things just cant be simple now. i have now heard from multiple people that someone once very close to me NOW misses me and is realizing the stupid shit they did. i just want to say it is too late, but something in my heart says i need to listen. i loved this person with my heart and soul, but how can you forgive someone ( Read more... )

well... i went to Tahoe, saw my aunt and uncle, went skiing, saw 2 snow storms, bought a full length fur coat (white Rabbit) met my cuzin for the first time, realized that i want to live my life and not think about what it would have been like if i had done some things differently. came home, went on a date with Alejandro to dinner and a movie, ( Read more... )