along with the rain pouring down so did my tears today. all day long. i woke up with a killer headache and couldnt do anything to cure it. i had to tell the one person who has been able to convince me that i could smile and be happy, and i mean truely happy, this year that i cant be what i really want to be with him. i will never charrish someones ( Read more... )

has anyone ever felt like a friendship is too good to be true? this weekend was amazing, and even that word isnt enough to describe the passion i felt over the weekend. i spent almost all of my time with Alejandro. i cant remember the last time someone made me feel so perfect. and i dont think i have ever known someone to be so wonderful to me. " ( Read more... )

it has been a while since i have updated my journal and for that i am sorry. well not really i have been to busy and that is a good thing and for that i am not sorry. my car has been fixed after someone hit the front and side of it in a parking lot. she is beautiful and as wonderful as ever. i want to thank Alex for the best job i could have ever ( Read more... )

i so wish that i could have someone following me around with a camera today. we plaied football and have had a pretty bad season being one player short. (me) today was my first day back and our "star player" Chandler was out! all i have to say is i got my first sack on a big fat guy and our first game we were up 21-14 and our second game we were up ( Read more... )

Has anyone ever heard of the names Mike Reed, John Gnuechtel or Miguel Molinari? Seems to me they do something for EA games? hmm... why am i getting mail from a film school with those men on the front? huh... This is so weird but kinda cool at the same time. My mom is going out of town tomorrow, maybe something good will come out of it? Maybe a ( Read more... )

i had a very interesting dream lastnight. this dream takes me back about a year but it was set in present times. i was at Disney with Lee and his parents again. i was sleeping but i guess while i was sleeping i could see what everyone was doing and hear what everyone was saying. i know it is weird already i am sleeping in my dreams. anyways Lee had ( Read more... )

if i dont write anything else in this journal it is probably because i did not make it through my endscopy... i love all of you guys. no matter how you have hurt me in the past i still love you and i want you to know that.

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well yes i must agree that this valentines day was infact pretty bad. you know something funny... it seems to me that if you still care about someone you would let them know it on days like this. or even the day before a day like this. like my birthday. i dont understand why ALL guys are unable to come forth after something bad has happened and say ( Read more... )

to all of you out there that have someone to love you today, i am envious of you. i would have loved to have someone who loves me today. it would have made the day alot nicer. i would have loved even more to have someone to love me yesterday. it was a lonely day. and a painful one. too sick to write... i can bearly breathe. i just hope one day all ( Read more... )