They say that you are whom you choose to be. That you can be a totally different person 5 years from now from whom you are today. I always wondered why it took 5 years. I always thought it was because becoming someone new took a lot of time and effort. But in reality you need that time to let whom you once were, die.

Times like these makes me feel terrible. It's like live journal serves me no purpose than like that one friend who you never talk to until you can't talk to anyone else. It's been so long since I've last entered my thoughts that I don't even know why I'm bothering now. Maybe it's for old times' sake. I once read it said that "time flows like a ( Read more... )

It's 5:08am, and I'm needed in Orlando tomorrow. I seem to write in yearly cycles, so I'll blow through some of the things which happened. Through the summer I grew close to Jasmine. But she's the type who wants to get close, but shuts down when it really happens. Last I heard from her she was prepping for surgery. I fear the worst, but I hope they ( Read more... )

Wow, it's been a month already, and I really need to update myself on what's been going on. Probably in reverse order just cause. So this girl I had talked about last entry, we'll talk every so often, and it's really strange kind of how I feel about it. Maybe she's warming up to me? I dunno. I think I really like her, but some part of me is holding ( Read more... )

Funny thing Monday night--I bumped into that girl I had the dance-off with on Valentine's Day! Nothing really happened, but I think it felt good to have been remembered. I must have made a really good (or bad!) impression. But either way, it was a quick chat, and so life goes on. I met someone named Jasmine. Strange circumstance, but the long and ( Read more... )

I've been living my life to moderate success as of late. I still get sad, I make mistakes, but I've started to realize that it's my life to get sad and make mistakes. And when I make it... really make it in the next few years, I know that it'll all be worth it. I will excel in my career. And one day, I will be able to find that one true someone who ( Read more... )

She's changed ( Read more... )

And Again I visited her. More later once I've slept on it.

I probably have been partying too hard as of late. In Miami I would attend the session from 10 AM til about 10 PM, then go buck wild. On Thursday I actually didn't get out until 11 PM when I went to go meet Texas at Dr. Feelgoods.

It's strange that, I didn't really say much. I think normally when some weirdo does the whole stalking outside her house thing, he's trying to say something and get it off his chest. I just kinda sat there letting her speak. Maybe I wanted to see if she had wiped all existence of me from her life. It shouldn't matter, but it still does to me. Maybe ( Read more... )