I am simply tired. It's been a long time since I've posted here. Many new changes have occurred since I posted...well not that many. Still single (and content with that), no kids....and have made and lost some old and new friends. People around me have gotten married, had kids and grew up. I however, am standing still. I want some time to myself... ( Read more... )

My life is for Rent. Seriously...today was way too much information to take in. First I pissed my mom off. She was mad that I was talking shite about dad. Truth is, she cant handle the truth. Truth be told, neither can. I found out someone has moved on from me. Hurts like hell to be honest. I'm not pissed....just hurt today by people that I hold ( Read more... )

Buffy once said that Xander and Anya were her light at the end of a very dark tunnel. After Xander left her at the altar...buffy said they must have been a train. Where is my light at the end of the tunnel? Jesus.
Life is so hard sometimes.

Things with me have been screwy. Ive almost graduated from FMCC and things look bleak on the employment area. I may have to just get a normal job like everyone else, and not get into my career like I wanted. My religion is falling apart but my spiritual side is just fine. I found love, but this man I love doesnt love me back. Major ouch ( Read more... )

Well It's official...i still love George. I thought I'd be over him but in all honesty I'm not. Does a person ever get over their first love? He is married and has a little family all his own. It stings me to see him so happy. I am alone here, and it stings even worse..knowing that if I had played my cards better in the past, we would be together. ( Read more... )

I thought Id write in here since the school frowns upon myspace. I usually blog on myspace..but today I suppose it is right that this is my last first day. I will graduate after this semseter. I'm really nervous and and exicted at the same time ( Read more... )

I feel like I'm getting to a good place in my life. I feel like I am close to God and Jesus and I've been getting my mental strength back. In such a short time I've finished reading 2 novels and half of the New Testament in The Bible. Feels good to have silence and inner peace. Feels good to be me. I no longer am focusing on the love life...or ( Read more... )

I broke down today and wrote George. I really missed him, and was hoping that he would be my friend again. I had to let him know about my Cushing's. I got a call today from the doctors, but I missed it, and have to wait til tomorrow morning to find out what they (the doctors) have to say. Just two days ago, they said I had to take Iron supplements ( Read more... )

Why is it that people are comming out of the woodworks now I have Cushings? "Oh sure we can care about you now that you have BRAIN CANCER"....I'm just plain 'ole exhausted with this shit. Frank is the source of my anger. I know for a fact he can date me, he just doesnt want to look like the bad guy. I know he's seeing other women. I know that he's ( Read more... )

If you know me you would know that two things piss me off. One is lying to me, the other is being ignored. Leave it to me to develop feelings for someone who I havent even met. Leave it to me to find a nice guy...that doesnt want me ( Read more... )