so in my eternal search for my way I've turned to sufism. I always liked the poetry I read but always wanted to know more about the practice. Well, now I've gotten my wish. The book I'm reading,"The sufi book of life". It's really just a set of meditations combining deep breathing, visualization, and sometimes chanting sacred words. I feel as if it ( Read more... )

so my dad finally got in touch with my sister who I haven't seen since she was like eight. she's nineteen now. She was not happy to hear from him and told him to leave her alone. all I can think, is that I took to long to get in touch with her and that if I try now I'll get the same answer. I'm going to try anyways I have to,she's my sister.

Now it has been said before that we can contact Faeryland by entering a trance state and summoning it up. what faeryland is is hard to say. My experiences lead me to believe that we are definitely contactin something when we do this because whenever I've done the visualizations it's gone places I didn't want to go and taught me things. the past few ( Read more... )

so it turns out buddhism isn't all I thought it was. The theory was good but the practice was dreadful made me feel deflated. I've been studying runes instead and using them in contemplative meditations. so yeah.

becuase zazen is the exact opposite of what our society wants us to do it is a valid form of resistance. it's really difficult because we have been programmed to be busy busy busy but it's worth it.

Because when you do it long enough(and you only have to do it up to twenty minutes a day), you get really quiet inside. It is then,I believe, that you get to see the world and yourself as you really are and not how you think they are. Coz when mental action stops there are no more screens between you and the light. I'm not some buddhist master or ( Read more... )

I'm not a very good buddhist. I don't practice at all. maybe coz zazen is boring! see i've read a bit on the subject and the theory is interesting but the practice is just boring.As far as I can tell if you practice for a while you get really quiet inside,yup that's it. though i'd still recomend it coz as it says in zen mind beginners mind the calm ( Read more... )

I am so sick of serious shit. There is just no reprieve from it. It's not like life doesn't hand us enough heavy shit we got to be focusing on it in our spare time. Blah.

does anyone else find it funny that the name of my journal is alien love palace and I have a picture of pooh ( Read more... )

It's just sick that's what it is. Generations of abused children lying to protect their families pride.My father abused me, his father probably abused him too. Fortunatley I'm a step ahead I'm not repressing anything. See the thing is,my father repressed his memories for nearly forty years. it is no coincidence that relationships and jobs crash and ( Read more... )