If you just learn to appreciate the things around you for maybe half a minute (sometimes less) things you want will slowly flow your way. Don't pull your "that never happens for me" bullshit, you're being impatient and you're not truly doing what makes you smile. I know how I want things to be and I have pushed harder than ever for it to happen, ( Read more... )

I miss you. More than anything. I always tend to get attached to people that leave me, I know you couldn't help it. I just really miss you and need you.

I'm going to conceive a baby in January.
pshawwww

It's kind of pathetic to say I would go back and do it completely different, but I would. 

So with a whole lot of reading and investigating my mind, I'm finally gaining a little personal acceptance ( Read more... )

I have continued my long quest to find something to fill that black hole in my heart.  Yesterday Drew and I decided to adopt a dog from the shelter.  We both prefer big dogs, and we both actually prefer boxers.  We found one.  Might I mention she has a rather ironic story behind her, but I do not feel like typing it.  Anyways, she is beautiful,  ( Read more... )

I'm not very good at handling these situations. It hurts.

I'm coming home tomorrow.

 I can't even start to try and make my brain understand how this is going to be. You have no idea the things I have thought about you, how I have felt about you, or the things I have wanted to say. For some reason the mere thought of some day being in the same room with you made me want to throw my hands in the air as if I were some toddler just ( Read more... )

Florida Wednesday with my baby momma. I'm so ready.
Fuuuuunnnn.
=]

I'm not sure if I like this feeling. I thought I would, but it seems like I felt better just sliding down. Everyone was so proud of me, said they could really see my "potential". As I have said a thousand times before. FUCK POTENTIAL. I don't expect anything from situations, but when this happened I thought it could run through my brain and blood ( Read more... )