today is my Christmas gift from Anthony.
Blue man group!
finally.

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p.s. I finally got a cute hat in my life.

I really do love him.
Despite what anyone thinks,   .....I do.

Nigggga I'm getting all girly & shit.

I think spending the night building train tracks helped me.
Weird.

Saw my Ariel today, she is the only girl I have been wanting in my presence lately, her & Hannah. (Speaking of which, I got news she will be coming soon more than likely, almost positive ( Read more... )

oh so content.

I love hanging out with Ariel & Chelsea, I don't stop laughing, and I honestly think that is what I need more than anything right now is a good laugh.
Just to remind me "Ay kid you're still young, just relax."

I miss Ariel.
I need her.

I want to deeply believe that I CAN get by with a little help from MY friends.

I'm owned.
I know no one will ever know what I mean unless they jump inside my head & tug through my thoughts, because OBVIOUSLY no one agrees with me. People could not be any more ignorant about it either.

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I'm afraid I'm in more conflict than I can handle.
I feel like the weakest person in the world.
I'm never going to be okay.
For the past eleven years I've tried to maintain.
I've given every ounce of energy to being OKAY.
And now I have no energy whatsoever.
So what do I do?
I feel like I have lost it all.
I feel like everything I worked for has just ( Read more... )