bad days. week? weekend?
not sure.

i feel gross, like any work i did last week has been undone.
i want to go shopping to buy carrots and safe food and cigarettes and all sorts of things i need but my money hasn't come in yet.
i want to go for a walk. i want not to feel like such a grotty whore.

fuck, i have no cigarettes.
fuck.

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oh god i am having trouble breathing.

i am scared and worried but mostly just fat.
i'm trying to feel okay about it.

but shit, sometimes i should just have some self fucking control.

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ARGH
I
ARGH!!! I need to prioritise
or just get some fucking ace self control.

DAJAHGKJHG DAMNIT
no more of the 'munchies'

I wish I felt this determination when I'm around food.
Late at night, early in the morning, in class. I'm fine, I'm resolute.
I'm so angry at myself.
:/

Everything I ate today has probably just reversed what gym work I did today, and I worked out pretty hard!
Ugh. Cigarettes and diet coke for the rest of my life, thankyou.

today was a good day.

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