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Does anyone still follow this blog? If anyone is still paying attention, I'm now blogging at singlemotherahoy.com, come say hi. -
"I love it when a plan comes together..."
This time last month my entire life was a disaster. I was pregnant and alone, the man I loved was with someone else, I had nowhere to live and everything seemed pretty shit ( Read more... ) -
Possibly the most surreal day of my life?
Today started as horribly as yesterday ended. I felt absolutely wretched, with no idea of how to sort my shit out ( Read more... ) -
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So the depression has come back, and I am all over the place. I lost 5 pounds last week because I've not been eating. Not slept much either. Neither of these goes well with pregnancy. The midwife, the GP, the counsellor have all suggested more and more forcefully that I go back on the pills. I have declined. Last night, after listening to me blub ( Read more... ) -
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I've been crying for about 3 weeks. Every night on my way home from work. My life was not meant to be like this. Having a baby was not meant to be like this. Pregnant women are not meant to feel like this. I should be looking forward, planning, excited. I can barely move I just stand in the middle of the room and cry. Everything has gone to shit ( Read more... ) -
A very up and down few days.
Things with the bloke seem ok. We had a long chat on Friday. Alone, in a pub, with no kids and no interruptions. It was actually the first time we had ever done that. He talked about his feelings for the first time I can remember. He said he wanted me back and would work hard to get that, but that if I decided it wasn't what I wanted, he would ( Read more... ) -
Confusing day.
I think the bloke may have taken some advice from a friend who knows their shit. He's being very nice to me and seems to be trying his best to sort things out between us so that we can at least be civil to each other ( Read more... ) -
The Things: an Introduction
So for those of you who don't know, I'm spending about 98% of my time living with my boyfriend and his 6 kids. I decided rather than confuse you all with names etc, I'll refer to them by nicknames. Before when I've asked the two youngest girls what I should call them, they've been keen on Thing 1 and Thing 2 - after the two creatures in the Cat in ( Read more... ) -
Chooo Chooo Choooosday
I'm not enjoying my job at the moment. It's not fun. I work in a call centre, which swings from boring to stressful on an hourly basis. I've not had a monthly review for several months and nobody really cares how I'm getting on with anything. I requested a lot of training, which was promised but has yet to materialise. And really, at the bottom of ( Read more... ) -
I almost didn't even make it two days in a row!
I was planning to try and update this thing every day for as long as possible... And almost went to bed without bothering to do it! Durr ( Read more... )