...is my only salvation from the abonination I've created inside myself.

I want them back. With every neutron, proton and electron in my body, I want them back. I didnt want to hurt anyone. I was selfish, and because of it, the best thing that ever happened to me is gone. I wonder...I wonder why I decided to be selfish right then and there. I wonder why did it at all. Being selfish has never halped me in the past...so ( Read more... )

Well...Easter's nice. I think it's kinda good to have family-oriented holidays here and there. I randomly got along rather well with my father today...but perhaps that's because as soon as we finished eating, he went and took a nap. Holidays make you realize how much you miss people, too. I miss them...SO much. I wish things were different, you ( Read more... )

I hope that you finally see that the way you treat people is wrong. You've hurt me so many times that I hurt now just thinking about it. Always acting surprised as if you had NO IDEA that what you said and/or did had ANY negative affect on me. Sometimes even turning it around ON me...as if it were MY fault that you said and/or did such hurtful ( Read more... )

If you couldn't tell by my little mood-icon-guy...I'm SICK! I HATE being this kind of sick! I'm also bored as hell...and slowly, I'm learning to LIKE being bored. NOT a good thing, I think. The Canadians have invaded my head, and they're using me to infiltrate the circles of American youth. They want me to sway, and eventually, corrupt you all into ( Read more... )

I feel as if I've been on idle for a very long time. I haven't REALLY done anything productive since I got my GED. That was like the beginning of January. I'm...starting to see why the girls are always so glum. Life really ISN'T a bowl of peaches. It's a cesspool...a cesspool we all float around in until someone mercifully flushes us...and then we ( Read more... )

So I lost a friend...don't really wanna talk too much about that because it's MY fault, and I'm not too proud of how it happened. My dad's getting me a car on sunday...and I'm pretty psyched about that. I'm getting a tattoo NEXT sunday...pretty psyched about THAT as well. Casey-I'm sorry I didn't spend much time with you at AMC last night. Kara-I'm ( Read more... )

NEW UPDATES!!! YAY! I hate people because people are absolutely RIDICULOUS! HOWEVER; people are SUPPOSED to suck, by nature, so I LOVE people all in the same breath. I thought I would throw the few of you that still READ this bad boy a bone...to tide you over for a bit until I actually sit down and SERIOUSLY write a new, full-page journal entry. ( Read more... )

I'm going to kick your mother's teeth into her OVARIES! I was kidding...so how's everyone ELSE!? I'm pretty lost for the moment. I don't know where my life is going, but I don't think I'm going to like where I end up. People are starting to eat at me like a plague. My sister's a bigger fuck-up than I am, but she hides/gets away with it by being ( Read more... )

When you KNOW people have your number, but for some odd reason, they just NEVER CALL YOU...it kinda makes you wonder if you REALLY mean as much to them as they say you do.......