So I have noticed that I really miss my text friend. I know its silly because there is a great deal of embarrassment that goes hand in hand with this friend. We can't keep it clean which is a shame. It was another outlet where I really didn't feel judged and I could just throw crap out there. I know essentially that is what a live journal could or ( Read more... )

I think the Hypericum is working. I am able to enjoy things again. I am getting into the uni work and really enjoying it. I knew I would like being constructively critical of everything. The little things aren't bothering me so much. I have a big assignment due on Monday so we will see how I cope with stress ( Read more... )

Last night I went to see my favorite band of all time, The Eels. I see them every time they tour. they are great and I become transfixed for 2 hours and buy way too much merch. I was very restraint last night I only bought a hoodie which is something I actually need. I took Eva as a birthday present. I hope she enjoyed it she was very hung over, ( Read more... )

So after my last post I feel I should explain myself. I have been battling with depression and anxiety for a long time. Maybe my whole life, but at least since I have been a teenager. I started self destructive patterns at a very early age. At the end of high school I discovered homeopathy ( Read more... )

I went to a new GP today to try and get a script for antidepressants. I had been keeping this to myself until this morning. I went to get my medicare number and started balling my eyes out. I told my parents what I was about to do. Way to start a monday morning. I am very low ( Read more... )

I know what I am about to write is bad. I shouldn't admit it. Unfortunately, my compulsion to announce what I am feeling needs an outlet. It seems to need an outlet the most very late at night. I should really specify between the hours of 11pm to 3am I get restless. I become kafka and woody allen's love child. Its not pretty ( Read more... )

Oddly enough I had to cut off matt last night. It is a good thing. I feel really hurt. I hate leaving people behind. Its not something I am good at. I don't know what to do when he contacts me next. I am angry enough that I would like to tell him to get fucked. But I know that will achieve nothing. I just am letting it go. He is dead to me. I wish ( Read more... )

Who am I? It seems to be a favorite question of mine. Actually when I was younger I remember thinking it the most ridiculous question ever. How could you not know who you are. I did have a very clear idea of myself in the past. All certianty is a delusion ( Read more... )

I procrastinate to a point where I can't believe myself. I am so tired and I have achieved so little. I really don't care ironically enough. I do though. I contradict myself so much. I have this friend and its gotten really bad again and I don't know how to pull away. I hurt other friendships because of this one. Now all have is this thing that is ( Read more... )

to paraphrase what i just heard on the radio, jesus has returned he came back as choclate eggs. Everbody knows that.

Awesome hehe