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A Year in Review, The holidays, Decemberitis.
I know a lot of people don't like this time of year. I know I have complained about it previously. People get nasty around Christmas, and are just generally mean to each other. I love the summer the stickiness the sun, the beach, the longer days. It has been a long time since I have felt as alive as I have this summer. It is a strange thing because ( Read more... ) -
randon thought at 1:30 in the morning.
I think city rail is a good analogy for life. -
Too much caffeine at work.
I am upset again. Tell me something new. I am not sure why. I think perhaps it's my predictable way of letting myself feel hurt. I wonder if my actions have had unpredicted results. I suppose it shouldn't be surprising that Eba has vilified me. I shouldn't have contacted her anyway. I was drunk on Friday night. Why can't I get drunk with out ( Read more... ) -
The Past
The powers that be were back burning today. It didn't seem like back burning, as the skies were filled with smoke and ash is still wafting in the wind. I foolishly did laundry today and my sheets are a bit sooty. hmm. I thought there were bush fires until I looked it up on the web. There smoky day reminded me of the summer when I was 10 and my ( Read more... ) -
Gigs, (Why am I so bitter, Is it the tea?)
I have started innumerable journal entries lately and have not been able to get passed the first sentence or two. I don't really know why there are lots of things I would like to document for myself. Journalling is also a superb procrastination tool so I am totally baffled as to why I simply can not write. Perhaps there is not enough angst in my ( Read more... ) -
Rumination with a gold fish.
I am meant to be meditating on safety and hiding. This is a problem for 2 reasons. I struggle with meditation. Being mindful is rather agonising for me. I try I struggle and I rarely succeed. So meditation usually pisses me off because I zone out and all of the sudden I have to be present in all of the bullshit that is around me. Eeep see there I ( Read more... ) -
Dance Party Next Door
As juvenile as this will sound it must be said. I really wish my neighbours would stop playing dance music so loud. There is something about dance music that makes me anxious. I don’t know why??? I just can’t seem to relax. Maybe I just find clubbing stressful so I have negative associations with doof doof ( Read more... ) -
Grumpy pants beware of the blood nut
I am hurt. It seems I only write when I am feeling a bit blue or angry. Oh well I need to vent and no one seems to be listening at the moment. Last week I was feeling really overwhelmed with all of my friends going through major shit. Sometimes I have a habbit of feeling like I need to fix all my friends problems. I know this is totally imposible. ( Read more... ) -
June
I decided I should update when things are going okay. So I don't sound like a totally imbalanced freak... Just a partially imbalanced freak. So June ( Read more... )