there are some times when i really want to say things to certain people who seem more important to me because there are things that i want to tell them that i cant and all i would want to do is come clean and say whats on my mind but i cant because timing is everything always. and never will not be. wow what a beautiful day it will be when we all ( Read more... )

the timing today was good. yesterdays timing was good ( Read more... )

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i think about perfection as i walk up and over and down and pause on top to look over and out and across and as far as the eye can see. damn this fog so inhibiting but its got a nice aesthetic. ill never understand why youd want to move away from seasons ( Read more... )

so things were more stable when i was more secure in my assets but i walked the plank into an ocean that i had never sailed before, let alone had been forced to fend for myself in. i felt like i was drowning and losing consciousness in a sea of uncertainty, clouded by conflicting emotions and irrational thouht patterns. i just came across a piece ( Read more... )

i listen to whale sounds ( Read more... )

dream one ( Read more... )

waiting for food ( Read more... )

its just that i feel lonely and feel hopeless and it seems hopeless to talk about because it doesnt change anything. and i try to make connections but i feel unwanted. and it makes it harder to want to make connections. but i love people. i just feel so reluctant to open up because of so much rejecction. it is a self destructive cycle that i do my ( Read more... )

"my computer is warm and it feels so nice up against my torso"

i am so ready to find things to be interesting again. i am so ready to find things to be interested in again.