Today I really tried facing up to the truth that I had been in a love obsession for many years. I always kind of knew this, but I was afraid of facing it. I always got these angry thoughts about this woman, why would she not help me? Why should she leave me on my own so much in this? And I didn't want to have this anger in me so I fled into loving ( Read more... )

Last night I prayed hard to Jesus about my life and Indira. He answered. He said Indira had really given her heart to her boyfriend Eduardo, and that it's all over. She has no romantic feelings for me anymore ( Read more... )

New Living Translation (©2007) Isaiah 42:3 ( Read more... )

Today I feel a huge temptation to returning to gaming my life away. I almost bought a new game. It's difficult to resist ... I managed to resist but I feel like an addict with shaking fingers.

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We christians seem to have forgotten to look at the sky. The ancients truly believed that the sky was God's home. They looked at the blue desert sky and the immensity of the sight and the belief that it is God's throne really shook them. We moderns say to ourselves, we have sent rockets up there, we landed on the moon, and didn't see any God. When ( Read more... )

Ok, it's been three weeks and I lost around 7 kilos. At least 13 kilos more to go. I eat no dinner anymore, only something little for breakfast, and a moderate lunch. Almost no sweets anymore. I still drink a lot though. Mom says I already look a bit thinner, it seems so to me too. I know it's a bit vain, but I want to be more attractive again. ( Read more... )

In the past three weeks, I had a very intense time. I should have documented it somehow, but I haven't. I think there was a lot of God in it, but a lot of what happened already blurs in my mind. The main message I got from God was that He gave me the troubles with the schizophrenia, the general sense of failure about my life in the last 10 years. ( Read more... )

Last week's Monday I made a bad mistake. It was the first day in the clinic, and I was introducing myself to the other patients in my group. I told some things about myself and then I mentioned that I am a christian. But then I remembered how some people don't esteem christianity and made the remark that I am able to shut my mouth if people are not ( Read more... )

some of my haikus. ( Read more... )