Well, it's been a bit since I've written in here. I have my period and am definitely overwhelmed with wedding planning and the prospect of having to move again in a month or so.

Aaron and I are doing well, but I am still insecure and wondering if I'll ever feel fully loved by anyone. It's obvious this insecurity isn't grounded in reality. I wonder ( Read more... )

Two days ago, June 24th, Aaron and I were in a tent in Michigan, at the Electric Forest music festival, lying on our inflatable mattress. I'd just woken up after about an hour and a half of sleep, and Aaron hadn't slept at all. We were just smiling at each other and saying our I love yous, as we do most mornings that we find ourselves awake at the ( Read more... )

These past few days, my anxiety has been through the roof. I don't know what's going on, but it just occurred to me that it was around this time last year that I was discovering Francisco watching me. I'm on the verge of a panic attack right now and am trying to stave it off by writing in here. I feel faint ( Read more... )

I think it's time in my life that I begin to obsess over health. If I don't, both Aaron and i will be in trouble. He has a sweet tooth and a penchant for prescription drugs, and I like my booze and adderall. But it's more than that. We at a lot of crap - healthier than most Americans do, but that's not saying much. Aaron has already experienced a ( Read more... )

I love him so much. I had no idea I was capable of loving someone so much. I can't get enough of him; I want to marry him ( Read more... )

I haven't written in awhile. I'm not sure if that's an indicator that things are good or just busy ( Read more... )

I am not drunk, and today was fairly bizarre. But that's why I'm writing: I am so, so, SO in love. I'm so excited to marry Aaron and love him for the rest of my life, whatever happens ( Read more... )

I'm freaking out as ( Read more... )

So, I took a bath last night and tried to relax as I wrote a list of things I could do to avoid getting into relationship problems with Aaron. Even though I think my former relationships were all with completely immature (and sometimes abusive) men, there are a couple themes that I don't want to repeat but see coming about with my current ( Read more... )

I just had such an amazing voice lesson. Apparently my French has much improved, and my voice is drastically improving. I’m so excited about it and happy ( Read more... )