Aaron is in first place, and I'm so in love with him. SO in love with him ( Read more... )

Okay, so it took, what, 5 days before I got over the new relationship thing and am not completely fucking in love with Aaron. Like, head over heels. All I want to do is be with him and kiss him and touch him and have him touch me and talk with him. He is everything I want - fuck everything I thought when I was looking for reasons not to be with him ( Read more... )

I haven't updated in quite a bit, I guess. Things with my neighbor have escalated pretty seriously, and I've called and had the cops come to my house 3x. Francisco has cum all over my window, left pubic hair sticking out of his cum, urinated on my window, and left underwear hanging outside of my window. I've vacillated between nervous breakdowns ( Read more... )

The subject line might have a bit too much levity for what I'm feeling ( Read more... )

Holy fucking shit. Anetta is flying me out to New York from the 8th-13th. I can't even believe this. She misses me and wants me to sit out on her patio with her and drink wine. Me. She misses me and so is going to fly me out and now I can go to a day of my intensive. She misses me. Someone misses me this much. I'm overwhelmed and happy and on the ( Read more... )

I'm so depressed today. For so many reasons. I feel ugly and unlovable, for one. And then I had to tell Mike today that I can't attend the intensive this year, even though he offered me financial assistance - I can't even afford the plane trip out there. It's the first year I'm not going, and I benefitted so much last time. I cried when I wrote the ( Read more... )

So, I clicked on the tag "Make Out Festival" in my archives and found this questionnaire, which has always amused me ( Read more... )

The seal has been broken by Mr. Jackson. Thank you, Mr. Jackson ( Read more... )

This trip has been a nightmare, and now it's been since March that I've had any semblance of stability ( Read more... )

A part of me is looking to be saved from this life. I want someone to come along and partner up with, so i don't have to go through the financial part or the hardships of life along - I want someone to spend blizzards with and to hold me when I cry, and someone I can make feel brilliant and special and loved in a way he's never felt love before. I ( Read more... )