the last couple of days i've been really sad. i know why, but i know that i shouldn't be sad. this really sucks.

So. I don't know who I am anymore. It's a big statement, but it's so fucking true.  I'm pretty sure that my emotional state depends completely on what others say to me. If I hurt somebody and regret it, I can't get anything done. Nothing. I mope around, feeling an ulcer tearing at the inside of my gut, and try and calm down. It doesn't ever work. ( Read more... )

It's always a good feeling to think. I think.

After a long while, the paper's still got corner's and edges, and the circle remains depraved and roll-y.

Life's sort of like the grain in wood; one cannot expect to follow a predetermined path or parallel others. Straight isn't even an option, so forget about it.

Close your eyes for a day, and truly ( Read more... )

And so it begins; the familiar temptations take slots at the front of the line after waiting so patiently to be seemingly cycled through an endlessly short list of emotions.

And on it occurs; the overwhelming unrestricted surge of previously restrained thoughts and feelings pour out like fire from a dragon's mouth.

Life, gorge me, for I am ( Read more... )

introversion only dawns when it's a hazy night.

it is a hazy night

i see myself, and you,
i wonder on how we are.
no, no, not her, but you.

so why is it that we're here?
are we here to see ourselves?
you, Him, or somebody else?

are we here to watch them evolve?
are we here to help them along?

perhaps we're here to enjoy life, and fulfill our desire...

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( thoughts; with shade, in black, of dark. )

( Journeys Never Slow On an Endless Road )

( brows of shroud and deception )

I feel better now than I think I have in ages. And it's because of all of you...yes, all of you. I'm done with petty differences, with little upsets and aggrevations. I'm tearing down the walls I've so foolishly erected...and with that, I hope that some people will scab with me. That's really all I have to say...I'm just so happy...I feel so good ( Read more... )

My Ultimate Relaxation Prerequisites ( Read more... )