I think its high time to update on myself! :P hmmm, I have red highlights now, to start with. They don't look that bad either. I don't know if I like my hair better when it had blonde highlights, or now with red. They both look good, so I guess it doesn't matter to me :) I signed up and paid for classes for January, so I am officially going to ( Read more... )

I am so sad. And angry. I know I am going to cry myself to sleep tonight, and there is nothing I or anyone else can do about it. That makes me mad :( www.livejournal.com/~burningdamned read the only entry in this journal. There, now you know why I am sad. I want to help him and I can't, which only makes me so mad. Because I know there is an ( Read more... )

Its Thanksgiving. YAY FOOD. This is the first Thanksgiving I have had at home in 4 years. The last 3 I spent with Ryan and his family, which I loved. I feel very bland today. Even though I have been cooking and preparing food all day, which I love doing generally. I don't know. I just feel lost. Oh well. Today is out of my hands, whatever happens ( Read more... )

My cousin died yesterday, and I am not very okay at all. I am sorry if I get sad around you, but its been only a little over a month since the last time someone I love died. I don't know if I can handle more people dying right now. I am sad. All I want to do is cry some more. :( But I am going to work instead... Hopefully when I tell them about it ( Read more... )

So its friday night, I should be sleeping because I have to wake up at like 6:30 to drive to Central!! I am going to breakfast with Jim and then leaving. Oh exciting!!!!! I get to spend another weekend with one of my favorite people, Betsy! I love you Betsy. We are going to have so much fun ;pp. I got the job at Victoria's Secret. This should be ( Read more... )

I am so mad now. I have been trying to call Sarah and Amy for the last 2 hours. The line has been busy the whole time. They knew when I was planning on calling, someone is online. I am supposed to take them shopping, but its not working... And I can't just show up and ask them to go because that is not the way their parents work. OH man this is so ( Read more... )

I have been thinking, and there are a few things that I know. Love is one of them. I love people. I would like to think that I try at least, to understand everyone. And I accept them. I have always wanted to save the world. Its like a dream of mine I guess. I want to help all those people who think that nobody cares. I care. I just hope that is ( Read more... )

I have been to a lot of church today, and may still be going to yet another one. I feel very quiet and calm, and silent and still. I don't know. Hmmmm... I am tired. Wow its a dull day out today. I went to the mall, and ate at olga's. I think I am going to go take a nap.

Love for all who read this.

I have come to the conclusion that I am getting a lot better. Here is some proof. I haven't cried over anything dumb at all in a long long time, I mean like at least 2 months. I just don't anymore. There is no point. The only time I have cried in the last 2 months, was at the hospital and funeral for Jackie. Well that is a logical time to cry, so ( Read more... )

Hmmm. It has been exactly a month since one of my best friends ever, died. I was supposed to go with James (her fiance) to the cemetery to see her today, but I haven't been able to get a hold of him. :\ I don't know what to do about that. I really miss her. James came to bible study last night with me and ben and jim's house. We both cried, it was ( Read more... )