Today is my first day back to a school in too long. I sort of can't wait until saturday because that is my math class, and I really really miss math. I know I am weird for saying it. But you know, its my favorite subject. Kim thinks I am nuts because I said that I missed doing homework or something, not that I did it all too often at home, while I ( Read more... )

Yep, thats right! My little sister is 17 as of yesterday!(since its the 10th now instead of the 9th) Wow that makes me feel old. Hmmmm. I am tired. Hmmmm. Wow that is twice now that I have done that. I am bored! Well, no I am not... I am tired. I am thinking too much while I am talking to people, and nothing while I write here, which is bad because ( Read more... )

You know what. I am trying. And I am sorry that you cannot see that. I am sorry that nothing I do is good enough for the people that I have loved in my life. I am paying off debts or just bills. The skirt kim paid for... The only gift I paid for with cash was Jim's and sorry for wanting to give my significant other something... Kims presents I used ( Read more... )

and.... Well yesterday was my nephew Jonathen's 1st birthday! he is so cute ;ppppppppp the 1st of January would have been one of my best friends, Jackie's, 22nd birthday. I slept in her bed New Years Eve. Me and James did a lot of crying.... Her James, not mine ;p even though he was there too. But he didn't cry, just sat and listened to the two of ( Read more... )

i love how everyone has such little faith in me. its great. i love having no support about anything from all the people who are supporting me, and how its tearing up my friendships. i fall apart because you tear me apart. rip me in half, and leave me doubting any abilities i thought that i had. its great being judged and found as unworthy and a ( Read more... )

So Ryan dropped off some things at my house today. I wasn't home of course, but that is the way it was meant to be. Well he had had one of my shirts, and it was folded neatly on my bed along with the rest of the things he brought. I picked it up and hugged it kind of, like I missed it or something, and it smelled like him very much. I... I just sat ( Read more... )

Today was a very happy day. I have no idea why. Nothing big happened or anything. But I was smiling all day, even at work, maybe even especially at work. I don't know. I feel like I am finally free. That I have no worries anymore, even though I do still. Like paying off bills and such. But today was just over all very content. I am glad. Non of it ( Read more... )

God, I know you see me. I know what I have done. They say that you forgive me, but how can I win something I have already won. Grace is our present, love is our grace. You are amazing, I will spread this Faith ( Read more... )

Love Sucks. All it ever is, is painful. Spend your time getting your hopes up and always being let down. Now some people might say that I don't remember what its like to not be loved, because so many people have been loving me for so long and all at the same time. But they would be so very wrong about that. And all those people loving me all at ( Read more... )

Hmmmm. I am a lost. Please, point me in the right direction.