My father was arrested yesterday for possession of crack cocaine. It was only a matter of time. But still ( Read more... )

I realized for the first time the other night that I hadn't heard someone tell me that they love me in that warm happy gushy romantic way in two years. It hit me like a pillowcase full of bricks - like an out of tune piano crashing down on my heart. I'm a romantic - still a realist - but that faint trace of my old dreamer self keeps me a romantic ( Read more... )

Sometimes I feel ugly ( Read more... )

I miss my father ( Read more... )

So I'm starting to wonder if spinster will be a good look for me in the future ( Read more... )

I have lost faith in many things.

So right now my heart is over worked. I've tried to put it in too many places. I've let it's guard down too many times. And I've been squeezing it so hard trying to drain it of every possible drop of emotion that it has now been drained and slipped out of my clenched fist. It landed somewhere behind me of the dirty aluminum floor. And I know ( Read more... )

Right at this moment it is 9:41 p.m. and I was in bed ready to fall asleep. This is an unusually early bed time for me, especially when I don't work all that early tomorrow morning, but I'm drained of energy. I haven't quite caught up on my sleep from the all-nighter I pulled a week and a half ago. This thrown in with my work load piling up at ( Read more... )

Wonder ( Read more... )

So it’s official… I’m another year older. And with another year comes the reflection of a year (and a short life) gone past. There are good memories and bad memories; there’s been heartbreak, love… any of the things one would expect out of a typical year in a human life. But there have been plenty of things to look back on fondly or to reflect ( Read more... )