I dont know what to do or think anymore. I love you so much, but now im insecure, now i have doubts. No kind of intimacy for 6 months really affects someone. You stated you had a high sex drive... was that just talk? Do you no longer find me attractive? Is there someone else? You dont even look at me. Ive tried to look my best for you and still ( Read more... )

Well hello there LJ! Sorry its been so long old friend. so much has happened i cant even begin to explain ( Read more... )

my emotions are so scattered its ridiculous ( Read more... )

why did i let you go? we were so great...

i feel like im putting so much more into this than you are. you seemed so much sweeter before you asked me out. it seems like once you knew you had me wrapped around your finger you didnt care anymore. im hoping that in three weeks when i see you it's going to be worth it all. i miss you so much it's ridiculous. i spent 400 dollars to come see you ( Read more... )

since december my life has gone from bad to worse. i cant handle this anymore. im so emotionally drained i feel like i can function. i can never sleep anymore havent been for the past month. getting about three hours of sleep every night isnt helping any thing either. i need to just GET AWAY or something. i feel like im drowning and there is no one ( Read more... )

im so hurt i dont know what to do with myself. i hate that everyone was right, i did things i dont do and for what? to look like a fucking fool. why do i always get fucked over? i get told how much he loves me and misses me and cute lyrics sent to me and a few hours later "im done, i cant do this anymore" wtf. i dont fucking understand. and its sad ( Read more... )

words can even express they way ive been feeling. i feel so numb to everything. i was alright at work, i fell asleep and woke up twenty minutes ago and i just want to cry all over again ( Read more... )

-sigh- i just feel like giving up.

i totally understand why he had to leave tonight, but i desperately wish he could just be still laying in my bed cuddling with me.
i miss him already and he hasnt been gone for long.
all i wanna do is cuddle and go sleepies next to him.