I feel the pressure in my chest again
The weight of the unboring hole at my center
The evil thickness of nothing oozing not out of it but within
It is not evil
it is not dark
it is nothing
and thus i fear it

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I cant 'wait' much longer
This is becoming almost unbareable
I need to release ( Read more... )

There was something meaningful in the world once
Maybe I couldnt see it, but it was there
Now though, I know it's gone
It's vacancy gives my a sense of utter hopelessness
That no matter what I decide, what I do, or anything for that matter
Nothing will change
Because nothing really matters

I'm going to do my best to live happily
Even if I am use to ( Read more... )

Each day goes by quicker and quicker ( Read more... )

Im not sure how much of this shit I can take
I feel like fucking hanging myself
I can't fucking take much more of this
I'm losing all control
There's no rescue coming
My ship is going down and I can only do my best to survive the impact
And god knows how much control I actually have over that

I feel like im sick but im not
Im always tired when im awake
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1. Distance myself from everyone
2. Those who care for me the most will reach out to me (I am not to reach out unless it is critically needed or feel it is an emergency)
3. Staying in touch with those most important to me, I will slowly begin opening myself to them until my core is exposed
4. I must release bursts of emotion with what I am going ( Read more... )

The random, chaotic, and bizzare thoughts that run through my head unsettles me at times...

I was looking at my friends page with their most recent entries
No one was shown

Amongst the unhealthy and unsuitable for society
Do I belong with them
In the birdcage with all the other coo-coos

Funny how weak I feel typing all this while at the same time I feel ( Read more... )

I fear I may soon tear away from everything completely.
I will shatter it all to bits and incinerate all that I have come to understand and believe.
That the only way out is out of me.
The only solution becoming someone else.
Someone new, fresh, clean, and more powerful.
Hidden, but powerful.
That is who I am.

The waves of hidden destruction and pulses of ( Read more... )

Help me
Hold me
Hear me
Help me
Help me

Help me
Help me
Help me

Help me...

I could honestly see myself killing someone ( Read more... )

My visions are more frequent and intense than they ever have been before ( Read more... )