i feel so confused and happy and wonderfully sad.

i feel like such a sell-out on livejournal.

i PROMISED i'd keep up with this. i'm going to have to try harder.

i dont think anyone will comment at all. no one seems to be here anymore.

i feel like a trend-slut.

i care so much for him.

i was surprisingly hurt when i saw he erased his journal.

i had ( Read more... )

someone asked me why i hadn't posted lately.

and honestly, i think it's rather important that we only speak when we have something to say.

otherwise...it's just a waste of breath.

so maybe in the past weeks i've had nothing to say.

but now i do.

you.

why must you do this?

i don't get you, i dont claim to understand your actions.

it's as though ( Read more... )

kiss me for desire's sake...and not out of obligation.

<3

*celi*

"Thoughts meander like a restless wind inside a letter box they tumble blindly as they make their way across the universe... "

I talked to him yesterday...my birthday...and I guarantee it's not who you're thinking...and I spoke aloud this constant fear that dwells somewhere in the region of my stomach.  The part of me that jumps whenever I skip a ( Read more... )

Above all else, it's the knowledge that you're in love.

All the signs are there:

The tempo of your beating heart.

The depth of your quickened breaths.

And the faintest touch, the softest brushing of lips, creates the shivers of excitement and sparks of sensation that have become so familiar...

And it doesn't ever go away.

And you may insist to ( Read more... )

i've been scared.

i've been happy.

i've been desperate.

i've been lonely.

i've been suicidal.

i've been heartbroken.

i've been tickled.

i've been sexy.

i've been ugly.

i've been hugged.

i've been kissed.

i've been loved.

i've been complimented.

i've been stared at.

i've been hated.

i've been used.

i've been hurt.

i've been slapped.

i've been CoNfuS ( Read more... )

m&m and i...

DezertFlowr09: i want to breathe
Wickedmm13: y arent u?
DezertFlowr09: im holding my breath.
Wickedmm13: y?
DezertFlowr09: because i'm afraid of upsetting the world.
Wickedmm13: ah yes...
Wickedmm13: im sure the world hates it when u breathe 
DezertFlowr09: cause damn, the world gets pissy....

*pause*

DezertFlowr09: aww f*ck it, ima piss ( Read more... )

01. sometimes i just remember things and cry or laugh ( Read more... )

fill it out if you want (copyrighted from aarons lj :D )

Who are you?:
Are we friends?:
Why are you my friend?
When and how did we meet?:
How have I affected you in any way?:
What do you think of me sexually?:
What's the fondest memory you have of me?:
How long do you think we will be friends?:
Do you <3 me ( Read more... )

So I've decided what I want for my birthday...

Yes, yes, I know that it's a long way off but here it is:

I want a boyfriend.

The REAL kind.

Really really really really badly.

I want someone....

Smart

Funny

Attractive

Optimistic

Talented

Friendly

Sweet

Outgoing

& Honest.

Does anybody know where you find those? If so PLEASE inform me or else ( Read more... )