i think that i am turning into a bona fide insomniac, except this time minus the perk of choice. the latest trend is falling asleep for about two hours and waking up unable to fall asleep. the trickiest part is when i do fall asleep, i feel so tired and relieved - thinking that perhaps maybe this time i will sleep through the night, but no. it's ( Read more... )

i've always wanted to be one of those cool witty people who hang around coffee shops talking about world news and books - to be cool, to be calm. i've always wanted glasses too (don't attack me for that). but i'm coming to the realization that this will never happen so much (the glasses maybe when i'm older and when i won't want them). i mean i ( Read more... )

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ok so pity entry. can i just say i hate this vacation? i hate it, hate it, hate it. today my granny and aunt went back to the cape. of course, yay i get my bed back but now the only people i had to talk to are gone. now i am alone in this house helpless, unable to walk. i hate this vacation. i hate it. i hate it, i hate it i hate it. it's ( Read more... )

ok first off, let me just say merry fucking christmas. dear god, my knee hurts so much and i'm waiting for the painkiller to kick in. throbbage. holy crap i couldn't fall asleep this morning until about 7 am, fucking am. i hurt, i hurt : (

so i have nothing really to write this entry about. no new insights, absolutely nothing of interest. fun times. btw, christmas is this saturday, as in today is wednesday and in three days it will be christmas. holy crap. i feel like at brandeis, aka, jew land, it's really easy to forget about christmas coming. sometimes in the midst of ( Read more... )

i love the snow so much. loving snow seems like something someone from new england would grow out of. i mean, granted as a little tot (who says tot?) you roll around in the snow, content for hours - making snow angels, snowmen, masterminding fortresses for snowball fights, or sledding or anything else. you would then come in, peel off your wet ( Read more... )

so here comes the random 1:46 in the morning livejournal update because sara has informed that it has been a while since i've written in this thing, and truth be told, it has been a long while ( Read more... )

So yet again there is this indescribable sadness.

Directly after that, I started probably six variations of sentences but deleted all of them because I cannot adequately express what I mean. I feel like I'm falling down but I know that I'm physically sitting here in front of my computer desk staring into this harsh white.

What the hey.

I think it's terrible that the only time that I write in this journal as of late is whenever I'm very sad or upset or depressed or pissed. Overall, I am a happy person, but writing about happiness just doesn't seem as fufilling which is sad because we really should appreciate those precious moments where happiness seems to find us among the crowds ( Read more... )