"Well I'm starting to wish that I'd faced this alone; without expectation, or a long-standing hope. So I'll push on my brain till it fails me again... Let us write all our words with the blood from our hands..."

I like to get drunk with friends it's true
But I'd rather be sober and alone with you

BREATHE, DAMMIT, BREATHE!

i wish(ed) i was a pretty little bird
i wish(ed) i was a pretty little bee
i wish(ed) i was so far away
and no more you'll see of me

aaah aahhha hhahahahh ahhahah!

look:

>IF YOU BROKE EDGE DON'T FUCKING TALK TO ME.

direct quote!

hhhahahha ha!

if that gets the drop... i hope i go to hell.

otherwise i'd feel too smug.

really really badly.

"Well I wish I was a pretty little bird
I wish I was a pretty little bee
I wish I was so far away
No more you’d see of me"

do you know what i'm going to do ( Read more... )

i can't control my feet, feel like moving yeah!

band practice today(?)

feel so damn good
better'n anything else in a damn long time
i'm NOT going to be sober for a while
cha

band break-up message ever:

"Mommy and daddy still love you but they just can't stay married. We hope this doesn't put a damper on your childhood but we think you'll be just fine."

i drank again last night. i didn't get DRUNK, but still...

i can't drink any more. i'm terrified that i'm becoming an alcoholic. this is going to be very difficult, considering that pretty much all we do is drink.

but never fear: i'll still smoke. i'll make it work.

god knows something needs to work.