In the darkness silence slowly plagues me to think: is there anywhere to run to? Is it time to go? This hemp around my wrist, a friend once gave to me. Now he lives in the country of Quebec. Montreal they call it. Easy liquor and cigarette smoke, I'm sure, surrounds us both. Still the candles burn softly, slowly and smoothly. Simple re-location; a ( Read more... )

Back from Van. Fuck, I love that city. Ever since I can remember, those streets and high-rises have always captured my love. And now, being old enough to roam on my own and yet unable to sit and have a drink, it feels like a perfect set-up for a cross-roads. I only dropped two resumes. Yes, had I the motivation and dedication, more would have gone ( Read more... )

This city is draining. Need I say more? I've walked all these streets, I've been here before. I've ran the paces and changed my ways. And now I'm trapped, just thinking about past days. This is where I went to school, and in this field I stared at stars. Homes sit where I tasted the unknown, and porches where we sat and smoked cigars. So farewell ( Read more... )

only two days of school left. a month can disappear right before your eyes in a heart beat, or a deep breath. friends are returning, only to leave again. not a prisoner, just a captain on a lost ship; any direction will be fine, but keep moving. and it's the moving that drives me, a pace to motivate and continue the journey. these tricks that I ( Read more... )

Perfect morning sunlight drapes the winter valley city ( Read more... )

this is my menu that I'm creating for school. any comments or suggestions would be awesome ( Read more... )

You say coke, I say caine, you say John, I say Wayne. Well, to those who care, I won't be joining any army anytime soon, unless it's a people's guerrilla force, because I decided not to lie and be truthful about my pot smoking. After an IQ test, which I later found out I did very well on (what that exactly means I'm not sure..), they passed out a ( Read more... )

Quit Milestone's on Saturday. I should have taken my own advice (see Nov. 6 entry). But on the plus side, that short-term gig gave me some X-mas money, so I won't look like a complete loser come the 25th. School is amazing. I'm learning so much everyday, I feel as though it's the building of a studier foundation. One of our assignments is to create ( Read more... )

It's funny. I don't really enjoying drinking, I never really have. Sure, I've had some fun nights with a two-six of gin or vodka, a forty of tequila or a twelve pack of Keith's, but ultimately the night turns sour. A line is usually crossed where I find myself wishing that I wasn't drunk anymore. My head spins and my stomach aches. I lose all ( Read more... )

Organizing these thoughts has never been so difficult. I take pride in my nightly de-construction, re-building a state of mind one brick at a time. Trust me, there's a beauty in the stress and a calm in the storm. I do it for the moment, the money, the memory. So test me. Get me to run, jump and piss. I've been clean for the longest time in a long ( Read more... )