Today I learned ( Read more... )

It's been nice going to more shows. Sort of makes me feel at home and appreciate music more. Seeing Conor Oberst for the first time was absolutely amazing. I haven't really ever seen someone play with so much passion. Although it took us 6 cabs, broken legs and drunk guys stealing my hat, it was still a wonderful night and im looking forward to ( Read more... )

The most frustrating thing for me right now is not being able to understand any of this. The last 10 months I mean. I can’t remember any of it.

Early October:

I didn’t really listen, you know, because we sort of tend to block out all of the things we don’t want to feel real. I mean, how do we really distinguish what feels real and what doesn’t, ( Read more... )

when you lose someone you love, you really feel stupid for anything else that has ever made you feel like you wanted to die.

Hey you,

I remember nights with you like they were my favorite food. I ate it so fast and it tasted so good that I hardly even remember eating it. I was reminiscing through my journal and realized that within that time I couldn’t even write. That’s how happy I was. Between the script filled with fortunes and empty pages, was you.

my ‘little ( Read more... )

the scariest thing for me then, was realizing that someday it would feel real and now it's starting to. it scares me to death. the only thing i can think about lately is how he isn't coming back. this whole process has sort of taken a toll on me. i have felt every feeling the human body could possibly feel. scared and then nothing and here i am ( Read more... )

saying goodbye without following has never felt so good ( Read more... )

It's all such bad timing and I wish that I could make it go away.

i don't think i can do this anymore.

Many of you know my dad as a friend, a brother, a son and even a husband, but only three of us were blessed with knowing him as a father. It doesnt matter what we knew him as though because we all remember him as one thing, and that is a teacher. He taught me everything i know. He taught me how to live life, how to love it and most importantly how ( Read more... )