My dads funeral is this Saturday and I feel weird saying that Im excited for it.
It's going to be huge and i have a feeling it's just going to feel liberating.

I miss him so much already. Everything feels un-real. The last 20 years have
sort of slipped into a dream.

I am going to be speaking on Saturday infront of hundreds of people and im nervous,
but ( Read more... )

I don't know what to think of anything. Wish I could feel alive again. I can hardly remember the last 20 years of my life. I am just hoping and praying for a miracle. Can't say goodbye.

Oregon is great to me but after a short while it just seems to be the heaviest thing i have to carry. Seeing old friends is wonderful but every once in a while i just want to fly away and hang out with a couple strangers who don't know anything about me. I have changed so much this past year it's unbelievable. The past couple hundred hours have ( Read more... )

Seems un-real that there is only one more week of this quarter and that I am only one more away from graduating. I have no idea what I am going to do but thats o.k. Excited to come back to Oregon in a week to stay for three. I hope I can lift everyones spirits.

this cant be happening. you were the closest thing to family i had. i want you to know that i never gave up on you and that i saw so much potential in you to turn your life around. i love and miss you and if i could tell you anything it would be thank you. I will never forget you. R.I.P.

-The 5 people you spend the most time with are who you will become. Im going to start surrounding myself
around people who want to DO SOMETHING. Because we all should be. There is no reason why we can't.

-I will own my own business in the next 5 years even if that means I lose more money than earn.

-Influence dont get influenced.

Coming to Oregon next weekend. Really excited to see my dad. This quarter is just flying bye and I wish it were going a little slower for once because I have a disgusting amount of projects. I can hardly believe I am graduating in 5 months. I don't even know what Im going to do with myself, its almost scary. Anyways, been focusing really hard on ( Read more... )

Weekend nights are better unplanned. Our original intentions were to drink at Cassandra's
apartment with some of her friends. I was a little flustered when she called me 5 minutes before
arriving to her house and informed me that we were going to watch her friends band play. I just
wanted to drink! An hour later we arrive at this little venue. It's a ( Read more... )

My critical thinking class has made me realize that im a terrible critical thinker, at least when I have to be ( Read more... )

I have been a lot different lately. Embracing the beauty of human nature instead of being ashamed of it ( Read more... )