NO ONE and I mean none of my friends offered to help me last night. They all told me I was crazy and that I'm just going to get hurt again. Well you know what? I don't believe my so called "friends" one bit. No. I have feelings enough for James to trust him and to know that he will not hurt me. I've never been so sure of anything else in my ( Read more... )

I feel like I can't do anything right. I'm finally happy. I find this overly amazing guy who is like the epitome of perfect and everything that I ever wanted, and his friend hates me. It's not even the hatred that bothers me, I could care less if people hate me, it's just that I never gave her a reason to hate me. It also seems like she's ( Read more... )

Is it almost time for Alayna to be born yet? I woke up this morning with the worst pain in my hips & sciatica. The sciatic pain is nothing unusual, but the hip pain is terrible. I guess Alayna must have dropped? Not sure. It seems that this morning she's only been kicking in the middle and not the sides as she usually has been. I didn't ( Read more... )

So I went to the prenatal emergency unit before, as I said, and it was...eh...very boring. They put on the fetal monitor and they really hurt me when trying to find Alayna's heartbeat. I mean, they were really hurting me. I've had the fetal monitor on enough times to know that it shouldn't hurt and it shouldn't take a half hour to find the baby's ( Read more... )

I took a nap before, really short nap, but I was feeling a little bit better. Well, I woke up when my phone rang. (JAMES CALLED!! :):)) and I felt shitty again. The pain was radiating from my leg through the right side of my abdomen and into my back. I doubt it's BH contractions because I've felt those plenty before and that's not how they feel ( Read more... )

Yeah, she does. Yessterday morning I woke up and my right leg was very swollen. It didn't hurt, I mean I could walk on it and everything, but I also noticed a lumpy thing on the inside of my thigh, kinda. Well, I just pushed that aside saying it's probably just another pregnancy symptom and that's that. I went out yesterday, but towards the end ( Read more... )

I miss you, Daddy.

Today, August 12th, it's been 18 years to the day that my dad died. :( I still miss him so much, even though I didn't get a chance to know him. I really feel like just waching home videos of when I was little with my dad. I guess I'm just thinking about it this year more than any other. Alayna got cheated out on probably an ( Read more... )

LAUREN!!! You know what I was thinking before? What if Alayna is born the same day that we met in person for the first time? Hehe. It was like October 20th right? I remember it was near a lot of people's birthdays...lol The ice rink!! I just found that funny actually. lol My mom actually brought it up. Seriously though, we've gone through ( Read more... )

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LAUREN!!

Man, I remember when I just met Lauren when she was a wee little 14 year old. LOL MY LITTLE LAUREN IS GROWING UP!! *sheds tear* lol I'm kidding. But you are getting older, homie!! One more year until you're out of your teens!! Awwww. lol I hope you have a great birthday. Wish I could be there!! One of these birthday's ( Read more... )

First let me say this -- my mom is the biggest pain in the ass I know, even though I love her. I wrote James a letter last night and she just HAS to go read it and snoop around in my stuff. That's the one thing I hate about her. She doesn't let me have any privacy at all. She doesn't know the concept of privacy at all, does she? I guess not. ( Read more... )